Head over heels (marianas trench/josh ramsay fanfic)

Chapter 13

*okay, on the website, it says i havent posted this chapter. But on the app -where i post and write- says i have. So just to be safe, ill post it again.*

josh pov -few days later at the studio-

"We should put out a cover video" mike said randomly "why?" Miranda asked sitting on my lap "the fans want us to make one" he shrugged "and it gives us somthing to do" ian added "what if you guys got carly rae to do a duet cover?" Miranda said "carly rae's busy with tour and stuff" matt said "what about you" i said smiling at miranda "oh no no no no" she shook her head "please!" Mike begged "i cant" she shook her head again "you can sing, sing with us" matt said "what song would we even sing" she gave a nervous chuckle "what about that song by p!nk youve been listening to" i suggested "just give me a reason?" She asked "thats the one" i chuckled "i dont know" miranda looked down at her lap "let me see your ipod" i held out my hand, she pulled out her ipod and handed it to me. I found the song and turned it on. "Ill sing along with you" i said. She sighed and we sang along to the song.

After we finished and the song ended and mirandas voice started coming out of her ipod "Um well. Here goes nothing" we heard her take a breath "josh turn it off" she reached for her ipod. "No, we wanna hear" i said holding it out of her reach pausing it "josh please" she said "matt hold her back" i chuckled and matt pulled her off my lap and onto the floor "fuck you all!" She sighed and i pressed play. "Its what... fuck its late, 2:46 am on may 11th 2008. Ive been up thinking about this song all day since the douche bag and i sang it. So im going to try to sing it to get him and the song out of my head... Ill delete it in the morning... Everyone's around, no words are coming out. And I can't find my breath, can we just say the rest with no sound. And I know this isn't enough, I still don't measure up. And I'm not prepared, sorry is never there when you need it. And I do want you know I hold you up above everyone. And I do want you know I think you'd be good to me, And I'd be so good to you. I would. I thought I saw a sign, somewhere between the lines. Maybe it's me, maybe I only see, what I want. But I still have your letter, just got caught between someone I just invented, and who I really am and who I've become. And I do want you know I hold you up above everyone. And I do want you know I think you'd be good to me, And I'd be so good to you. Woahh You bring me higher. Yeah. I would. And I do want you know I hold you up above everyone. And I do want you know I think you'd be good to me And I'd be so good to you. I'd be good to you, I'd be good to you, I'd be so good to you... That didnt help one bit. Fuck it wheres the vodka" the recording stopped and i looked over at miranda "let me go" she mumbled, matt looked at me "i said let me the fuck go" miranda demanded and matt let her go. She got up, took her ipod and stormed out of the room. "Miranda" i ran after you "what" she sniffled "whats wrong" i asked catching up to her "nothing" she looked at her feet "somthings up, what is it?" I asked "the roof" she said starting to walk again "miranda" i sighed and walked after her again, this time putting my hands on her shoulders to keep her infront of me "what" she sounded irritated "what is so bad with us hearing that recording" i asked "i dont know josh. It brings back memories." She said "whats bad with the memories" i asked "it reminds me how oblivious you were to me, a week after i recorded that the guys found out that i was falling for you. But you... you were inlove with amanda." She sighed "i wasnt oblivious to you" i said "think about it josh. If you didnt hear from the guys for a day, you'd freak. I dissapeared for 4 days and i got calls from all the guys. Not one from you, they said you were to busy with amanda" she looked up "that doesnt mean i was oblivious about you, it means i was busy" i said "you dont even care why i left in such a rush then... The guys knew and when i got home they cared for me for almost a week cause i was broken. You came over once to see if i had seen your blue and black checkered tie" she said "im sorry... If i could take everything back, i would." I sighed "my grandmother died josh, she died. I was closer to her than i was to any other family member other than my parents..." She said more tears falling. I was speechless, i knew how close she was to her grandmother. "Im... Im sorry" i said quietly dropping my hands off her shoulders. "Yeah.. Well, have fun today. Im going home, see you when you get back" she walked off and i just leaned against the wall behind me and slid down it. What did i just do..." I mumbled to myself