It's hard to love a person that will never be yours, not because he doesn't like you, But because loving him is one of the biggest mistake you've ever done.
What I feel is really strange, it's not the feeling I used to. I fell in love with someone I know will never love me back, because we're sharing the same blood and ofcourse our parents who brought us up. Dancing is the key for my love to him. That's why I always think, but in life, I know that there are so many hindrances that will come. Maybe it's not meant to be, or should I say that destiny is just challenging people who are really meant to be together?
The day of the dance contest finally came, we started dancing and I think something is wrong. The song playing is not what we chose, it's a song filled with love. The audience are keeping on saying that we're like a couple dancing on the stage.. Secretly, I felt happy but ofcourse I didn't show it to Jay. The dance was nice, the feeling was intense and I can't even hide to him that I was proud, dancing with him, my brother.. the one I love. Dancing is what I really love to do, not just because of Jay, but because I enjoy it and it's part of my life. Without this, my life would be boring.
"Stop loving your own brother, Chin! This is non sense! " I was shocked, someone saw me looking at the pictures of Jay. When I looked at her, oh it's Wendelle. She tried to slap me, but I held her hand hard.
" What do you think are you doing? You don't have the right to dictate the things I should do and those I shouldn't! "
" Oh wow, you know how to fight back now huh? Well, I guess you can't do that anymore cause you're brother is all mine. I love him and he loves me too! "
" Look who's talking! Stop dreaming! " I tried to slap her, just once. For all the things she've done to me in our past.
Someone came.
" Hey, Chin! Don't slap her, she's my girlfriend. " It's Jay, he crashed my heart into pieces. Hearing it from him, It hurts a lot..
Way back when I was in junior high, a trusted friend betrayed me. I never thought of her doing that to me, she just used me in her crazy stuffs. Wendelle made me look like an idiot. She likes Jay so much that she could do everything for him, like what she did to us in the present.
Wendelle used a person to fool me, it's JR. I believed that he loved me, and he can care for me but no, he don't even love me cause he loves my cousin, Trina. He stopped pretending when he saw my cousin, and I was shocked of that, they have a past love. JR told all the things that Wendelle wants to happen, and that's when she getJay from my side. It all happened, she's so lucky but her way of getting someone she love is wrong. Love is not selfish, we should know how to accept if the person doesn't love us, we should let go and try to wait for someone who can love us whole-heartedly.
I thought this love would be easy for a person like me, but I was wrong. It's not simple and easy, we should feel pain and we should sacrifice first.. That's what I did. Eventhough it's hard for me to accept that she stole the one I love, I did. What's the sense of fighting for him if I know that destiny is the main hindrance for the love I shouldn't feel?
Accepting the truth is the key, even it hurts me a lot. Every moment that I saw them together is killing me slowly.. It's been months and I'm still here, the martyr. The one who loved someone she can't even fight for.. The one who is waiting for him. Maybe this is the time for me to fight for the ones I exactly want to get. For the ones I want to be with. Wendelle did everything, but now it's time for me to do the things I can do for this love. I've been experience such things that I don't want to, but is he there to comfort me? No, he is with her girlfriend. They are so happy to each other while I am crying and enduring the pain. .
" Chin! Chin! I would like to tell something.. but your brother isn't here yet, Do you know where is he? " It's our mother. In her voice, I think she is nervouse, because she is trembling.
" Mom, I think Jay is with his girl. "
" What?! Oh okay, but can I tell this to you? "
" What's that mom? "
" You don't have any brother, you're my only child.. " she's trembling and I think she's gonna cry.
" But how?! "
" Jay isn't your real brother, someone just left him outside our house. I wasn't able to call that guy who left him here because it's raining hard. so I just accept the child and brought him up with you like he is my true child.. "
Then Jay finally came..
"What are you talking about mom? " he is angry, but I can see in his face that he was shocked..
" Did you hear what I told Chin? "
" I heard it clearly.. "
At first, he didn't accept it. he was angry and even tried to stow away. By that time, I was able to tell him all I want to tell. He believed in all I say, and even the thing about Wendelle. Unexpectedly, he even told me that he loves me so much.
" Jay, loving you was wrong, but now it's not. You're not my brother, and now I'm free to love you. Are you willing to let me love you?
Wendelle, that girl! She fooled all of us! You don't know what she did to me, she did bad things to me when we were in the Junior high! "
" Chin, I know. I'll let you love me, and you don't even need to ask permission because even you don't ask, I will force you to love me if you don't.
I love you too, that' what I really feel. I pretended like I don't like you, because of the thoughts that bothering my mind. You're my sister, this love that I felt is wrong but now it's not.. I don't feel anything for Wendelle. Actually, I hate her guts! You know the reason behind accepting her to love me even I don't love her back. "
Wendelle gave up and apologized to us, we accepted it. Jay was able to find his true family, but he never left me. We're still together, and yes, we are really togethercause we love each other. I bet that this thing is for real. Love is unpredictable, you can never know that it's meant to be until you find the person you are paired to.
