On The Line

Cant Make You Love Me

This is my first time actually using song lyrics... But Scott covered this song & I fell in love with it. It kinda fits lol, enjoy!

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Scott's POV:

That should be me. That should be me. That should be me...

It circulated around my head for a few seconds before I realized that I had indeed said that out loud and almost everyone had heard me. My eyes widened in shock and fear. What had I just done?! "I-I.." I looked around the cafeteria to see students eyes at my table. Crap. "SO YOU'RE GAY?!" Naomi yelled, obviously pissed. I only shrugged because honestly I thought that I was leaning more towards bisexual. But now I am even more confused. "That's why you never had a steady girlfriend! So were those just rumors about you being good in bed? I highly doubt you've slept with a female, anyway!" I can't believe you did this, Hoying!!" She said, storming away from our table to her old clique.

Kirstie looked at me with a smirk, "I knew it since the beginning Scotty Boy!"

Genevieve was still in awe of what happened in front of her eyes, "I...You...Oh my gosh."

I couldn't take it anymore. All the unwanted attention, the whispering, the giggling. I just couldn't take it. I got up as quickly as I could and ran out if the cafeteria. Yes. I, Scott Hoying, RAN out of the cafeteria from embarrassment. Let me tell you, it sucks. I ran to the only place I felt safe, the choir room. No one was using it because it was lunch and some teachers that had no students ate lunch at the same time. I was halfway to the piano when I heard Ms.Hopkins voice. "So nice to see you during lunch Scott! But what brings you here?" "I-I just need a safe haven right now.." I said looking down at my shoes. I was not in the mood to explain what went down a few minutes ago. "Hm. Well I'll finish my lunch and we could talk? Sound good?" she asked. I shrugged. I guess she took that as a yes because she went around to her teachers headquarters. I sighed and sat down at the piano and started to sing the first thing that popped into my head...

"Turn down the lights

Turn down the bed

Turn down these voices inside my head

Lay down with me

Tell me no lies

Just hold me close, don't patronize

Don't patronize me

'Cause I can't make you love me if you don't

You can't make your heart feel something it won't.."

I could hear my voice cracking in some places because of the raw emotion I was putting into the song. This was me expressing myself for the person I was being so heartless to. I now understood why I had taken everything so hard and treated people like shit. I was jealous and hurting. I was freaking in love with my 'best friend' who had a boyfriend.

"Cause I can't make you love me if you don't

You can't make your heart feel something it won't

Here in the dark, in these final hours

I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power

But you won't, no you won't

'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't..."

As I ended the song I felt like I had revealed too much of myself. I am an open book that no one wants to read. I was so focused that I didn't hear Ms.Hopkins come back in and sit where the students chairs were. She walked over and handed me a tissue. I was crying? Now I look weak. I took the tissues and cleaned my face. I probably looked a mess, but I didn't care anymore. Everything was ruined. Half the school heard that I was gay! "You know if you just accept it for what it is nothing else will matter. Just be true to yourself." Ms.Hopkins said. I guess this is her starting a conversation. "So who's the boy?" I looked at her shocked "Boy? What boy" I tried to say smoothly, surely she couldn't know. "I am a smart woman. I know when a young boy likes a girl. And you didn't like Naomi in the way you thought!" I looked down at the piano keys. "You really are smart." I looked up at her as she smiled at me, "It'll be okay Scott. No matter how things are now, it'll get better with time." I sighed. "I hope so."

"Scott? You okay?" I hear someone say. Ms.Hopkins and I turned to see Mitch standing in the doorway. "Have you been crying? What's wrong!?" he said rushing to my side. "Why are you here?" Was all I was concerned about now. "Travis said I could check up on you..." "Oh." "I'm gonna go back in my office." Ms.Hopkins stated as she got up and went into her teachers lounge area. I saw Mitch sit down and lean closer to me. "Mitch we haven't talked in weeks, why are you in here?" He sighed. "I wanted to actually talk to you. I missed you. I miss everything. I have no one anymore all because I pushed them away for a guy." He didn't look finished so I didn't say anything, "Scott, I messed up from the beginning. I know I had many times to come back and apologize, but I never did. And you becoming an ass just made it worse. I ran to Travis any chance I got. Then on top of that you went and got the new popular exchange chick! She turned you into something you weren't, and well now I see you weren't a lot of things! Straight being one of them!" I couldn't help but chuckle at that last part. "I-I'm sorry too." He looked surprised, "Yeah, I feel like I pushed you to him. We would be fine if you never went out with him honestly. I lost my best friend because of it, I turned into a horrible person, and I even trued hiding who I really was... And for what? To hide my sexuality, to hide my anger?" "W-Why were you angry?" Mitch asked. "A lot and nothing at the same time." I didn't need him knowing I had feelings for him. 

The bell had rung loudly, snapping us out of our little moment. "Well I guess this was a good start. I-I'll see you later?" "Uhm Kirstie wanted to invite you to a little gathering she's having..." I saw him smile slightly, "Tell her I'll be there. Now I gotta go!" He said then rushed off. Ms.Hopkins came back out and surprised me even more, "That the one you actually like?" "Y-Yeah.." I left it as it was and walked out the room.