Diary

Cornier then corn its self.

So, strange little update but...
I felt like writing it down,

The song 'fight song' (lol) by Rachel platten has helped me a lot. It sounds stupid because I'm usually not into that type of music but it's a really good song and it seriously cheers me up every time I hear it, (I'm legit listening to it now XD) also listening to pierce the veils album 'collide with the sky ' helps me wash away feelings. to clarify it a little,

I've been going though a really tough time, for a really long time. (Ok to be honest I'm literally crying, it's not easy to be open about this. I almost did this days ago but deleted the chapter 😅) and I have been struggling so much with body image, dysphoria, Major anxiety and self harm. I don't even know how I came to writing this. So stupid... Anyway I've gotten this habit off always walking with my head down when I pass people I'm not familiar with.. Fear of judgement, but I did have it all it worse back in my old middle school. In a practically full bus on my way home I remember I had put my ear plugs in and listened to half a song when my iPod ran out of charge. I was literally to scared to put them back in my bag, as if everyone was watching me and would think I'm weird. I can seriously still remember the feeling of so much fear. It's really dumb but I was so scared of people like it wasn't even funny. And that was before I knew what Anxiety was, I didn't plan on writing about this proved by the title which I'm to lazy to change.👤
Glob, I bet I'm not gonna publish this. Screw it..