Daughter of Mayhem

Guilt

"So what's our next stop," I ask as we enter the hotel room. "Next stop good ole Indiana," Zach says while flopping down on the bed. I sigh automatically knowing what race it would be. You only went out in the sticks or dessert when it was a group race. This means off roading and a lot of racers pulling dirty tricks. "We need to hit a garage before," I say to everyone,"not only is my car messed from the E-break stunt but you know everyone is going be playing dirty. We need to be prepared and upgrade are cars to handle the off roading. We also need to have a few tricks up our sleeves. If they are going to play dirty then are hand have been tied." Jax walked in with my suitcase and I pointed to the conjoined room to the right. "What do you have in mind," Joey ask me while sitting to the table. I looked around the room wondering why they were asking me. "I'm not the planner remember," I say looking to Joey and Zach. "Suck it up butter cup," Hope says to me. "First we need to find a garage that will accommodate all our illegal additions to the cars," I say while sitting down on the couch, "We need tires for starters and I need more nitrous. I'm thinking that flip gear might come in handy but nothing to noticeable. Maybe if it could be retractable that way no one knows but us. We have been in these races before and what do people have? They drop nails so we need tougher tires. Maybe a barrier around our tires. People go for the tires so we need to protect ours and go for theirs." Jax comes into the room then sits on the couch beside me. I lean up against his chest as my belly grumbles and I try to remember the last time I ate. Thing was I couldn't remember anything passing my lips besides smoke, pills, and alcohol. "Pizza," Zach yells at the sound of my stomach. Then Arman jumps on the bed and starts yelling,"Pizza." They both start jumping on the bed with a bottle Arman had managed to find. Both the men continued yelling for pizza. "Ok ok children," I say with a laugh as I walk over to the side table for a phone book.

When everyone had finished their pizza they all started to go off to their rooms. I stood up from the table following Sarah to our room. "Shower with me," she ask me as the door shuts behind us. "Wouldn't pass on that baby," I say taking her hand following her into the bathroom. She leans over to turn on the shower showing me that perfect ass of her's in those tight jeans. I come forward running my hand over her round ass as I hear a moan escape her lips. "I said shower not sex," she says laughing. I bite my lip giving her a devilish smile as I say,"Darling you asked me to get naked with you. You knew when you asked me that it would end with sex so don't play coy baby." I push her up against the wall and kiss her. Biting her bottom lip between my teeth as I pull back to look at her. "I love you too Jackson Teller," she says as she runs her hand through my hair. Then she pushes me back and laughs. "But I'm dirty so shower before sex," she says pulling her shirt above her head revealing a pink bra with black lace. Then I saw it. That tattoo she had gotten the night I was patched in. It was of a crow holding a rebel flag that read Mrs. Teller. "So you didn't cover it," I ask her as I pull down my pants. "I never stopped loving you," she says, "I couldn't cover it." I pull my pants down rest of way and step in the shower with her. "I won't ask how Joey dealt with that," I say to her laughing into the back of her neck. She burst out laughing before turning around facing me and saying,"He wouldn't cover the wedding ring he got tattooed on with Hope. We both knew we had someone else we still held a torch for. We were ok with it." She leans back and let's the shower run over her body. As she is arching her head back under the shower her chest begins poking out calling me to touch it. Instead I watch as the water drips down her chest down her curves over her perfect stomach which she would say was to chunky. Though all I saw was a real woman with curves and places to put your hands. I continue to watch the water trail down her stomach and watch it trail between her legs. This was were my gaze stuck. She was so perfect and what was between her legs I knew was only mine. I couldn't wait for this shower to end so I could claim what was mine and taste her sweet honey coating my mouth.

     I awoke in Jax's arms and I couldn't imagine a better image to wake too. I lean up kissing his cheek not expecting him to be awake when he says,"Good morning darling. Looks like we woke late no time for round two. We should probably hit the road." That's when I hear a knock at the door and I say,"Come in." Zach walks through the door and as he does he says, "Wake up lovers. We got to hit the road." "Ok ok leave the room so I can get dressed," I say while throwing a pillow at my brother as he runs out the room. "We don't even have time for a quickie, " I say pouting . "Nope get dressed darling," Jax says as he jumps out of bed heading for the bathroom. I start to think about how this is going to go tonight and I find myself praying to God that my crew will be ok and make it tonight. I couldn't remember the last time I prayed but if any time was the time it would be now.

We had finally made it to Lyons, Indiana after hours of driving and hours at one of the charter's shops. We were following the GPS when I heard the base of the music. I knew we were getting close when we turned down a dirt road and I saw the rows of cars, the half naked women walking around, and the glow of car lights. We pulled into the corn field parking in a line beside each other and I was glad we had installed off roading tires. "I'm nervous," I admitted to Jax as I put my car into park and turned the key over. He turned looking at me and grabbed my face between his hands. "If I know anything about you I know that if you put your mind to it there isn't anything you can't do," he tells me then kisses me gently on the lips. "Your right," I say grabbing for my door handle, "let's do this."

I watch as Sarah exits the car. I knew the deeper we got into this the more the danger there would be and I couldn't lose her again especially to death. I reach for my door and get out of the car. I join everyone in front of Joey's car. I look around at all the half naked chicks and realize they don't do anything for me anymore. I realized then I had it bad. As I continued looking around I noticed Ty with Lenny and his crew. I wonder to myself if him being with them is safe especially when everyone is about to go balls to the wall racing to the finish line. "It's time," I hear Sarah saying snapping me out of my thoughts. I lean down and kiss her deeply. When I pull away I whisper," I'll see you at the finish line." She walks off getting into her car and I can't help the fear choking me. We didn't put our old ladies into dangerous situations. It wasn't something I was use to but looked like I needed to get use to it or she may just force her patching in. Which I didn't want at all for her.

I pulled up to the starting line with my crew as the other crews pulled up too. I watched as two women walked out onto the starting line this time. Then I watched as one hand went in the air and the cars roared to life. Then I watched as her second hand raised in the air and I swallowed down my nervous. Then as the last of their hands fell I heard the sounds of the race coming to life and felt my car speed off from the starting line. "You are the one of the fasts Sarah I want you to stay at the back with me," I hear Joey say from the walkie. "You got it," I reply as I slow my speed down. I knew we were put in the back because we would be able to pull the take downs off and make up for lost time. I saw a car start slamming into Zach's car as I sped up a little faster rear ending the car that appeared to be the man they called Brian. It caused his car to be thrown off long enough for Zach to speed off away from his car but now his attention was on me. He slammed into my car almost causing me to spin out but I'm able to keep control. I see Joey coming up on the other side of him when I hear him over the walkie,"It's time to take him out of the race. Use the spikes Sarah you need to take his tire out on that side. I have this side." I pushed the button to release the spikes from the rim of my tire. I watched as Joey got closer to the side of the car and when he went in to ram the side of Brian's car so did I. I heard the sound of metal scratching metal then I heard the unmistakable sound of his tires blowing. Joey and I slammed on our breaks to avoid being hit when he went down. I watched as the car skidded side to side before starting to flip over and over. I sucked in my breath as I watched his car go up in flames as we passed. "We got this short stuff just keep on going," I hear Joey say over the walkie. I swallow my guilt before it can consume me. I press down on my nitrous button as I see the glow from Joey's tailpipe from his nitrous. As we race across what seems like an endless dirt road we come up on a pink charger I know has to be Sun's. I try passing her hoping for no take down when I see a spike drilling through my passenger door. "She has me in a spike Joey," I yell into the walkie,"No take down till I get lose." I put my car into cruise as I reach into the backseat grabbing the hammer I kept in case I ever got stuck in car. I move to the front seat and take a swing at the spike. I make impact pushing the spike half way out. I take another swing causing the spike to be slammed out of my car. I immediately swerve to the right away from her car as I watch Joey slam her car from behind with his flip gear down. Her car admittedly flips to the left causing her car to slam into a lamp post. I knew then that the war was officially on. We had taken out his sister he wouldn't let this go. "Let's speed to the finish now," Joey says over the walkie. We speed the rest of the way to the finish line to see that we were the first full crew to finish. We had won but it didn't feel good. As I got out of the car I felt Jax's arms around me. I held onto him letting him take all the feelings I felt away. "You had to do it," he whispered in my ear. "Then why does it feel so bad," I ask as I begin to cry hiding my head in his shoulder so no one could see. I knew then the light wasn't gone because I felt the death of those to people to my core. Even though I had no choice I had to protect my family I still felt the guilt so the light had to still be there. I walked through the audience to the stage to claim our winnings. When I grabbed the money I started to throw the money to the screaming crowd. When I was done I walked to Lenny and said,"I'm sorry but you tied my hands." I walked off leaving a confused Lenny behind. I knew it wouldn't take him long to know what I was talking about.