Daughter of Mayhem

War

      I opened my door and Sarah was in the middle of the room pulling her shirt over her head. "No need for shirts darling," I say while crossing the room to her. I stare down at this woman and for the first time I see how tired she truly is. "Have you been sleeping," I ask her as I pull her into my arms. She lays her head down on my chest and sighs,"As much as I can. I mean really my brain is a tornado of thoughts that keep me up at night. When I do sleep the dreams wake me and I don't want to go back to sleep after." I run my hands through her hair and can't help but think if I had fought harder she would've been with me and none of this would've happened. "What are the dreams of," I ask her not knowing if I want to hear the answer. She walks away from me digging through her bag before she answers,"I'm usually trapped and there are countless hands touching me. All the voices of all the men who have touched me. Then I see what happens if I fail in this. I see my family surrounding the graves of my kids, my brother, and myself. I've never taken a life before Jax. The option was taken away from me not to take these men's lives. It was taken away when they decided they would put my kids in this. You know  what bothers me though is the fact I'm ok with this. It's either my mother instincts kicking in or the light inside me finally went out. If that's so then everything I fought so hard against my whole life was pointless." I could hear how her voice kept breaking and knew she was crying but before I could go to her there was a knock on the door.

     The door opened but before I could see who it was I darted to the bathroom. I needed to pull myself together and I definitely didn't want any of the Sons to see me weak. I splashed water on my face and looked at my reflection. There were bags under my eyes from lack of sleep but the bruising had faded enough that it could be covered with makeup. I continued looking at my reflection trying to figure out who the girl looking back at me was. I felt nothing at the thought of these men dying besides relief. I jumped as the door opened. "Sarah are you ok," Jax asked me as he stepped into the bathroom. I walked across the bathroom and kissed Jax. I needed to feel him right then. I needed him to make me feel something besides this anger and hate building up inside me. Jax lifted me up onto the bathroom counter and deepened the kiss. He grabbed a handful of my hair and yanked my head back exposing my neck. I felt his mouth kissing my neck before it bit down on my neck causing me to moan. "I love you," Jax whispered before lifting my shirt above my head. Before I could say anything he claimed my lips again but that was the moment I knew I could accept the club if that's what came with Jax.

    We were pulling clothes back on when I stopped in my tracks looking at the papers on the bed. "Who are these people," I ask Jax. He pulls his shirt over his head before saying, "This is there crew. That is Lenny Yang their leader and that man there is Chin. That's his brother in law. This is his wife and Lenny's sister Sun. Then here we have Brian." I look closer at them before saying,"Chin and Lenny were there when my father was murdered." I sit down on the bed and pull my thigh high chucks on. "Are you going to the race tonight," I ask Jax. "Yes but we should probably leave if we going make it in time," Jax says holding his hand out to me. I take his hand and walk with him out the door.

    We rode along in silence most the ride. I didn't know if it was a good thing or not but I was pretty sure Sarah was fighting her inner demons as we rode. As we got closer to New York I could see the lights in the distance and Sarah finally spoke,"I use to live for these things. The music, the crowd, the adrenaline rush, and my crew was my daily for awhile. Something about proving time after time that I wasn't just as good as what people said but better. This life was in my blood." She smiled over at me as we finally hit the city and says,"Time to let my inner badass play." She puts her foot down on the gas pedal and shifts gears sending us speeding through the traffic. I knew then that this woman was my old lady. I smiled to myself thinking of what she would say if someone actually called her that. She had fought being an old lady when we were younger. She use to say old ladies were like purses just an accessory.

    "Ok Joey what's the first race," Zach ask as Joey joins us. "Drift," Joey says facing me,"looks like your up short stuff." I flip him off as I walk up to my car. I open the door and climb behind the wheel. Turning the key I hear the roar of the engine as I pull up to the starting line. I roll my window down when I hear Joey knocking on it. "What's up," I ask. Joey rubs his head before saying,"I just want to remind you that you can do this. I know you and you can do anything Drift Queen." He leans down and kisses my cheek before walking off. I watch as car after car pulls up to the starting line but then that's when I saw him. Lenny pulled up beside me at the starting line. He looks over at me and smiles before making a gun from  his fingers and faking like he shot me. I felt the anger start to boil up inside me but quickly swallowed it as I saw my crew standing on the sidelines. I watched as a woman in booty shorts and what looked like a bra walked to the middle of the starting line. She held her first hand up and you could hear the engines rev up. As she held the second hand up I positioned my hand on the gear shift. Then as her hands fell beside her I took off leaving the starting line behind me. I pushed down on the gas as I shifted into second leaving some of the competition behind. As I approached the first drift the only car near me was Lenny. We took the turn at the same time drifting smoothly around it. He was good but I already knew he would be. As we raced along neither of us getting to far from each other I heard Joey on the walkie,"Your coming up on the only and last straight away you need to use your Nitrous." "Roger that," I say into the walkie as I turn my wheel drifting around the last corner. As I came out of the turn I flipped the cover up to uncover my nitro button. I pushed down on the button as I saw the bridge in front of me start to lift. "Son of a bitch," I say slamming my fist against the wheel. I knew I couldn't stop now but I didn't know if I could make it. As my car took off up the bridge I pressed the nitrous button again sending me over the bridge. When I landed I realized it was a bad thing. I had landed with my back wheels hanging off the edge. I knew if I waited for bridge to come down I might be crushed or just lose but neither where options. So I pressed the button again sending the last bit of nitrous into my car. My car took off flying towards the finish line when I pulled the emergency break. I knew it would fuck my car up but there was no other way to stop in time and not crash into the crowd. As I come to a screeching stop I jump out of my car. I hear the roar of the crowd as I see my crew coming closer. When Joey reaches me I use his hand to jump on top of my car and there I wait for Lenny. I see his car coming to the finish line when I hold my hands out in front of me like a gun. I wink my eye and pretend like I'm pulling a trigger. The windshield of Lenny's car shatters before everyone's eyes and the crowd goes crazy. What no one knew was Jax was on the building above us with a rifle. Thing was everyone loves rivalry in this crowd so we were giving them it. I look straight at Lenny and yell,"You have declared war. You are going watch your crew fall before your very eyes. You will be the last to fall and you will know you single handed destroyed your crew." I jump off my car and walk off to collect the winnings of the race. Though instead of keeping it I started throwing it off the stage to the crowd. "Every winning my crew makes will go to the people," I announce before walking over to where Lenny and his crew is. I smile sweetly at him and say," We have money too. Looks like I just bought loyalty guess the price is off my head. Let's see how you get along when it's a fair fight." I walk away to my crew who welcome me patting me on my back but when I get to Ty he slaps my ass. I knew this was the fall out. I turned around and slap Ty. He pushes me against the car when Joey and Zach jump in. They slam Ty against the car as Joey comes across his jaw causing Ty to fall to his knees. I couldn't help but cringe and turn. I knew more was coming and I didn't want to watch so I walk away.