Perfect Weapon

Ace

Once I got home I went straight into my room and layed on my bed after putting a falling in reverce cd in and falling asleep almost immediately.
when I some up it was about 8:30(pm) I really didn't want to be in that hospital anymore, but Ace still needs all of us, everyone else has been there basically all week besides going home for a few hours just to take a shower or sleep for a little bit, but never for very long.
I jumped in the shower, not worried about putting on makeup or doing my hair. I threw on some black yoga pants and an oversized light blue asking Alexandria tshirt with one of Toby's hoodies that I kinda stole. there were a few blood stains, but it honestly just looked like marker to any normal person.
everyone was working when I got home, so we all greeted each other before I left. Expressy was crying when she saw my stitches. I don't understand how she cries seeing my stitches, and is completely happy killing someone.
I said thanks to everyone and left. I apologized for leaving so soon, but they understood.
I walked to the gastaion before calling Mrs. Thomas to come and get me. I felt bad, but she said she didn't mind and would take me anywhere anytime. I thanked her all the time, probably too much to be honest.
when we got to the hospital she handed me the ticket to get in and to hug everyone for her. I thanked her and waved as she drove off. I walked up to the man and gave him the ticket. he put it in the machine and it came back at me. I walked under the sign that blocks people from going in before it lifts up. I walked up 2 flights of stairs before reaching the loby because the elevator was out of order, but I didn't mind. once I got in the hospital and gave them my name and where I was going and who I was seeing and all that junk, I started walking to the elevator before I saw Adam and his brother walking out. I froze. I wanted to hide, I wanted to be invisible. why didn't I run away? I don't know.. maybe a part of me wanted to face him, or maybe I just was in shock. He told his brother to keep walking before he turned looking at me. he put his hands in his pocket after adjusting his hat.
"hey" he smiled.
"h- hi" I tried to smile back before looking at my feet.
"how are you doing?" he asked.
"I'm ok- but I should go" I said before getting in the elevator.
"great, I'll walk you there." he smerked.
I rolled my eyes before hitting the 4th floor button.
"look, Ciara-" he started.
"Its West." I corrected him. I hate when people call me by my first name.
"okay, West. I've been thinking about you, a lot actually. I really miss you, and I don't know why I treated you so badly. I guess I didn't realize what I had until I lost it." He was looking at his shows.
"yeah, I guess not." was all I could think to say.
the elevator 'dinged' before the doors opened.
"Ciara-" he grabbed my hand and turned me towards him. "please, baby. I need you. I was so stupid to let you go. I can't move on"
"well, you need to." I said looking down. I hated him, but I loved him at the same time. I mean, when I'm in his arms I want to punch him and then hug him repeatedly.
he gently lifted my chin up before going in for a kiss.
"Adam. i- I can't. You might not be able to move on, but I have. I have a boyfriend. you missed your chance." was the last think I said before walking out leaving him in the elevator in tears.
I felt pretty bad, but I didn't let It get to me. I hated lying to him, and I honestly don't know why I still care about him so much.
I brushed it off and walked into the waiting room and saw everyone but ace sitting there.
I took a deep breath, obviously noticeable because Roxy sat up and patter the seat next to her for me to sit.
I did.
"they don't think he'll make it." Carter said dully. she seemed more angry than sad, which surprised me.
I looked down, tears filled my eyes before rolling down my puffy cheeks.
"they said he has less than a month." Jay buried his face in his hands.
by then everyone was crying. everyone was separated, me and Roxy were the onlyones sitting next to each other.
I stood up whiping my cheeks like I was ok, but I wasn't.
"ok, first off, NOBODY is going to die. Secondly, what the hell?"
I said a little bit too loudly, I got some dirty looks from a few other people in the waiting room, I didn't care.
"how long have I known?" I asked.
"as long as we have, just a few minutes." Blaze shrugged. she was slouching in her chair to the point her back was basically on the seat of the chair.
"I know your just saying that because C.C. doesn't want me to know something. What do I not know?" u asked.
Roxy made me sit again.
"look hun, you just forgot a few things while you were in the hospital. everything is okay though. What you don't know now won't come to you, but we can tell you. All we know is that Ace has less than a month, if that, to live. Toby is going to be out of town for a few days. And Adam came up for a visit."
I shook my head.
"he can't only have a month." I looked down, disregarding everything else she said.
I looked around the room, everyone was staring at me.
"can I see him?" I asked.
Roxy stood up. she was waring baggy sweatpants and a hoodie, it was unlike her, she always likes to look her best where ever she goes.
she walked down the hall and to his room before walking away.
I walked in closing the door behind me. His parents were sleeping in the waiting room, this must be hard on them. this is hard on all of us.
I sat down in the chair next to him.
he had a feeding tube, an iv. everthinng that most people have in the hospital before they die.
"Look, Ace. I don't know if you can hear me or not-" I grabbed his hand, hoping he would squeeze it back. I started tearing up when he didn't.
"but I want you to know, that whatever happens, I will always love you. your one of my best friends. you have always been there for me, even when I was a bitch" I chuckled through tears. "but you cannot give up on us. you won't, you can't. you just can't leave like this. I'm not going to let it happen."  I whipped my tears, and let go of his cold, lifeless hand. damn, what I would give to hug you. I cleared my thoughts quickly and walked out passing his  parents.
I won't let him go just like that. its not going to happen. I will do anything in mine, and the pastas power, I don't care what it takes.