Bit of Love/Hate ||a.i||

Part 5

Guess who's back, back again ;) I'm so so sorry this hasn't been updated bleh :( I FIXED MY LAPTOP LADS I WAS CHUFFED WITH MYSELF! :O anywayyy, sorry it's been over a month, that is honestly so bad I'm sorry :( The more votes we get, the better chance yall have with new chapters cause we know people are enjoying it.. just saying

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Hugging Ashton felt exactly how any real, genuine hug should feel. I felt safe in his arms, like no one could hurt me.

The rest of our walk to band practice was a comfortable silence, even though Ashton hated me, I felt comfortable being around him. I'd love to tell him how I felt... Maybe if I try to make it out that I don't hate him he'd fall in love wiith me.

"We're here," Ashton announced, breaking me from my thoughts. I realised I had no clue whose house this was.

"Um, whose house is this?" I asked stupidely.

Ashton chuckled. "Calum's, sorry I thought you told you," he replied. I nodded my head smiling at him.

I liked the other boys, they were fun to be around.

Ashton knocked on the door and it was swung open straight away to reveal Calum chomping on some chips (Actual chips, like fries...).

"ASH wassup mate? Hey Bethany- wait what are you doing here?" He asked looking between me and Ashton.

"We're working on a project straight after," Ashton replied bluntly.

"Oh... well come in guys." Calum winked.

As much as I hate to admit this, Ashton was incredible on the drums. I already knew Michael, Luke and Calum could play amazingly. But Ashton? Not really helping with the whole massive crush.

"So... whaddya think?" Michael chirped smiling at me.

"I could lie and tell you you were good but that would be rude," I began. I saw their faces drop. "Calm down, I meant you guys were amazing! The drumming was incredible!"

"So... do you like our drummer?" Luke asked.

I nodded my head quickly. "I LOVE him!" I screamed, gasping when I realised what I just said. I looked at Ashton to see him red in the face and smiling like a moron.

"I didn't mean it like love love. I meant like loved his talent...." I stuttered quickly. I saw Ashton's smile drop out of the corner of my eye. What? Why? I felt my heart flutter at the thought he might like me.

"Oh... Well we're gonna get food, do you want anything?" Calum asked awkwardly.

"Um no I'm fine thanks," I mumbled.

"Mate?" Calum asked Ashton.

"Yeah, just some crisps mate."

He nodded before grabbing Luke and Michael and literally dragging them out of the room.

I looked at Ashton nervously. He smiled weakly and rubbed the back of his neck sexily.

"I understood what you meant, you know. I knew you didn't love me, that would be weird. We hate each other, right?" He said. My stomach clenched when I realised that Ashton would never love me or even like me.

"Yeah... We hate each other," I whispered and with that he left the room leaving me alone. I fell to the floor and let out a huge groan of sadness.

"Hey, are you okay?" A voice, I recognised as MIchael, asked.

"Yeah. No. No Michael I'm not okay," I cried. He was the only one who knew how I felt about Ashton.

He sat down next to me and pulled me close to him kissing the top of my head.

"I knew you weren't, I just wanted you to admit it yourself."

"I hate knowing he doesn't care about me Michael. I fell in love with someone who has made my life miserable and he does not give two damns about me," I sobbed.

"Ssh ssh babe. You are amazing. Any boy would be thrilled to call you theirs. Ashton's just an idiot. You deserve so much better than him, okay?" Michael said soothingly. I nodded, not trusting my voice to speak.

Michael stood up and held a hand for me to take. I took it and he pulled me up kissing my nose lightly. I knew Michael had a girlfriend whom he loved with all his heart, so I knew that was a friendly manner. It still made me smile though. We joined the others in the kitchen.

Ashton had his head on the table and was shouting, "I'm a fucking idiot. I'm so stupid. Why did I say that?"

Luke and Calum were trying to get him to stop, but he just started saying it louder. Luke looked up to see us standing at the door.

"Bethany! Michael! Hey, are you guys alright?" He questioned. At the sound of my name Ashtons head shot up with wide eyes.

"Um yeah, we're both fine," Michael said absently looking at Ashton. "Mate are you okay?"

"Yeah. I'm fine, I just said something really bad to my mum and I feel guilty," he replied hesitantly.

Michael obviously didn't believe him but didn't argue.

"Um... Bethany, can I talk to you?" Ashton asked quietly.

"Uh uh yeah okay..." I replied nervously.

Ashton stood up and stormed out of the room, me following him quickly.

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SO what do you guys think? Majorly short I know, I'm heading to a party and was rushing around the house like a looper.

OMG DOES ANYONE REALLY WANNA KNOW WHAT ASHTON WANTS TO TALK ABOUT?!?!?! I DO!! oh wait... I already know ;)

Isn't Michael the cutest? Nothing happens between them though! :)

I pinky pwomise it wont take over a month to upload next okay? BUT REMEMBER WHAT I SAID! The More Votes We Get The Sooner We Will Update!!!!!!

SOOOO WE'LL TRY THIS JUST ONCE OKAY????

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