Conversations with myself

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Sorry, this chapter is really short! Shortest one I've ever done, actually. It's just that I already have the next few planned so this just leads up. Thank you so much for reading and commenting and voting, it means the world to me.

I made my way back to my hammock and paced back and forth, tears streaming down my face every so often.

"God, what did I do?" I groaned to myself. "I'm so stupid and worthless and, ugh."

I can't even accomplish one stupid mission.

"Father was right," I whimpered. "I might as well let him kill me. That would be better for everyone."

Constant verbal abuse left me with very little self-esteem. I always tried to build myself back up, but at this moment I realized that my walls were imaginary. Whenever I told myself I Father was wrong about me, I was lying to myself. Filling my heart and my mind with empty whispers that in the end do me no good. 

"No, shut up," I told myself out loud. "I can do this."

I spun on my heel and started pacing the other direction.

"No, I can't," I countered, "I can't even beat a scrawny little bird boy."

I spun on my heel.

"I've been going easy on him," I tried to convince myself.

I spun on my heel.

"Who am I kidding?" I growled.

I abruptly stopped, a large frown on my face.

"I sound like a crazy person!" I muttered angrily. 

After fourteen years, Father has finally done it. I must be insane now. It's finally happened.

A crashing sound behind me made me snap around to see what could have caused the noise. I immediately got into a fighting position, waiting for my challenger to step up. But instead of an opponent, I was greeted by smoke. Everywhere. Coughing, I waiting for the smoke to clear. When my vision was once again restored, I took off in the direction the sound came from. I climbed up a fire escape and was now jumping from rooftop to rooftop. A black figure moved swiftly in the distance. My target. I ran until it felt like my ribs were stabbing me in the side, but the figure had too far of a head start on me. I had to stop due to the burning in my chest

I fell to my knees, the pain proving to be too much for me. I shut my eyes closed, trying to block out the intense sensation. Wow, I really pushed too hard this time.

That was my last thought before I blacked out on the roof.



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