Complete Harmony (Sequel to The Missing Lyric- Nemi)

Chapter 5

Demi

After I left Nick in the backyard, I threw myself down on my bed & started sobbing, uncontrollably. I know how bad I hurt him because I was hurting, too. It pained me to know he thought, even for a moment that I didn't love him. I loved him so much, but I had to love myself more. I had to be happy. I knew if I never had another baby, I'd never be as happy as I could be. I just had to trust that I was doing the right thing. I fell asleep at some point & when I woke up the next morning, I saw Nick's empty side of the bed & the ache, in my chest, started again.

I got up, took a shower, got dressed, then went downstairs. Nick was just finishing up checking his sugar & when he looked up at me, I sucked in my breath. He looked horrible, like he stayed up drinking all night, instead of sleeping.

"Good morning." I said, then smashed my lips together, because it wasn't really a good morning.

"Yea. Good fucking morning." He muttered, closing his black bag. "I'm going to go pack, I guess." He started to walk past me & I grabbed his arm.

"You don't look good. Did you sleep at all last night?"

He shrugged, pulling his arm from my grasp. "I don't know. Maybe a little on the couch."

"You don't have to pack everything right now, ya know? You can just pack what you need for a while & you can always come back to get anything & then get the rest of your stuff once you get your own place." I said with a soft smile.

"Fine. I'll just pack the essentials." He said in a bitter tone before he turned away from me. I could tell that he was just angry right now, unlike last night when he was distraught. It was probably lack of sleep or maybe he was sore from sleeping on the couch.

I fixed myself something to eat & poured myself a cup of coffee, then I sat at the counter to attempt to consume it. I sipped at my coffee, then heard Nick moving around upstairs & my heart began aching again. I leaned on my arms & fought the urge to cry. I wanted to run upstairs & tell him I changed my mind & I would wait to see if he changed his mind, but I knew, deep down, I couldn't do that. I had to put myself first. I was lost in my thoughts, so I didn't hear Nick come into the kitchen until he said my name, loudly. I looked up & saw him standing there, his hands together. "I'm sorry. I didn't hear you." I said, clearing my throat.

"It's okay. I wanted to apologize for being a dick earlier. I think it's lack of sleep & I have a headache from the beer & sleeping on the couch."

I smiled knowing how well I knew him. "It's understandable, Nick. You don't need to apologize."

Nick took a deep breath through his nose, then licked his lips. "What if I said... I..."

"Don't say it, Nick. I wouldn't believe you. You didn't change your mind in a few hours."

He pulled his bottom lip in & looked up toward the ceiling. "Demi... lots of guys..."

I stood up & raised my hand in between us. "Stop. I don't want you to have a baby with me & think maybe you'll want it once it's here. Please, don't make this harder than it already is."

"What if I were to change my mind?" He asked in a soft, barely audible voice.

"It will probably be too late. But you don't know if you will, so I can't risk the wait only to be disappointed later." I took my mug & plate to the sink. "Let's just go get this conversation with Lyric over with. I'm going to go brush my teeth then we can go." I walked past Nick & heard him sigh.

While I was brushing my teeth, Nick put his bags into his car & then I heard him talking to someone on the phone. I figured it was Joe, but I wasn't really listening too closely. I made my way out to my car & Nick was waiting by his, texting someone. He gave me a slight nod, then got into his car as I got into mine. I followed Nick to his brother's & the whole way there, I second guessed myself some more. I was dreading this conversation with Lyric, but we couldn't lie to her or try to hide this from her.