The sequel to The Missing Lyric finds Nick & Demi dealing with full time parenthood, now that they have legally become Lyric's parents. Being full time parents with two crazy careers, while also trying to keep their marriage intact has its challenge...
I listened to the doctor as he explained that he had to remove my uterus during surgery, in order to save my life & it felt like someone had put me in a vacuum, because I couldn't breathe. Nick rubbed my shoulder & kissed my head, but my heart was still breaking. I couldn't give birth to anymore children. I would never experience that moment, with Nick, as he coached me through breaths & told me to keep pushing. I'd never share that with him. He wasn't there when Lyric was born & Lincoln came into this world in an operating room, with me unconscious & his dad on a different floor of the hospital.
The tears came to my eyes, but I tried not to sob, dramatically. Even when the doctor sounded hopeful when he said I still had my ovaries & I could have a baby another way, I still wanted to cry. I didn't picture a stranger carrying my baby. Ever. I didn't want to think about that option. I just wanted this doctor to shut the hell up & leave me alone. I just wanted to have time to process this information.
Finally, Dr. Malone asked, "Do you have any questions?" He looked at me & Nick, but I wasn't looking at either of them. I was staring off into space, trying to stay calm so I could speak.
"No. Thank you, Doctor." I managed to get out in a soft voice. I was on the verge of bawling so I wanted to be alone. I covered my eyes with my hands & took a deep breath, hoping that when I uncovered my eyes, this doctor would be gone.
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"These are some pamphlets on C-sections & hysterectomies, so if you want to know what to expect, you can read these." Dr. Malone placed something on my tray, but I wasn't acknowledging them. No brochure was going to help how I was feeling right now. My heart was aching, my hopes & dreams of having a big family just shattered. I know those brochures weren't going to be able to tell me how to deal with that reality. I took my hands away from my face & nodded at the doctor when I realized he was just standing there, waiting for a response. What the fuck did he want? A hug because he had brochures?
I rolled my eyes as I watched the doctor leave the room, then wiped, frantically, at the tears that were falling down my cheeks. Nick got off the bed & walked toward the window, his hand rubbing the top of his head. I knew this gesture. He was unsure of what to say. That was fine with me, because I wasn't in the mood to talk about it. He sighed, turning toward me, then he looked down like he wasn't sure what to say.
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