I was nervous. I have no idea what to wear on this date, honestly..I've never even been on a date before. I was freaking out because it was 6:00 and I still had no idea what to wear. I tear up knowing if my mother were here she would have been so excited and throwing everything everywhere trying to find the perfect outfit.
I feel that pain in my chest knowing she has and will never see this date. She won't and can't attend my wedding. She wouldn't and couldn't meet her grandchildren. I feel a tear slide down my cheek and I wipe it away grabbing my phone and calling a girl I know could help,
"Ash?"
"Yes?"
"I need help. I don't know what to wear on this date with Kai."
"Alright I'll bring Dasi and Cadence be there in like...five minutes."
"Thank you so much!"
"Don't mention it." He says and I could practically hear the smile he's most likely wearing on his face.
(Ash's p.o.v.)
After Dasi taking forever and literally grabbing any clothes that could fit Carter and then Cadence taking forever finding makeup and hair stuff. Ugh why did I have to have so many sisters?
Once they're all done, and practically packed bags for a vacation, we head out. Once we reach her house, which Dasi and Cadence led me to we rush out knowing we took a little too long. Dasi slams the door open, "We are here to save you and your love life!!!"
I clench my fists tightly turning my knuckles white. I hated the fact that she said the word 'love' because she doesn't love him, she can't love him. I know I'm being selfish and I hate the fact that I was wrong. I hate that she had to go and make me feel this way, but I'm in far too deep to run away to shield my heart from this pain.
And I seriously doubt I could ignore her again.
I sit down watch as they pretty her up. I don't like how much makeup they're putting on her. It's like they're trying to cover up her face. But they don't realize they're painting over a natural masterpiece.
Once Dasi takes Carter into the bathroom and helps her do...I honestly don't know actually. But I'm left alone with Cadence, and I guess she notices the frown on my face that hasn't left since we've arrived, and sighs walking over to where I'm sitting and I turn to face her. "Look, I hope you can see what I see. But you're a guy and you're kind of dumb so let me tell you what I see.
I see a girl who likes a guy and is going on a date with this guy. I also see that's she's in love with this other guy named Ash. But he's a dumb little shit and he can't see it. She's in love, but Ash she doesn't know it. She has completely forgotten what love is supposed to look and feel like. All she knows is like. Of course she knows the word love, but she has no idea what it feels like. She's never been in love before Ash. You have to show her what love is and feels like before she gets it wrong and thinks she's in love with this Kai dude."
I gape at her, "But..how?"
She smiled at me, "You'll have to figure that out for yourself."
I hug her tightly and feel her gently squeezes me while hugging me back.
Then Carter walks out with a too short dress on. And when she stands right in front of me I see scars littered across her thighs before she pulls the dress down. I feel a tiny crack forming in my heart. She really has forgotten what real love feels like or is supposed to feel like or look like.
