Carter
It's been a few years now. It has gotten easier, I added a bit of body art to my body to ensure that I never feel as bad as I did the day I lost him.
I got a tattoo of a heart beat. His to be specific, the last time I got a check up the doctor monitored the rhythm of my heartbeat and I had Kai take a picture of what was on the monitor. I had gotten the idea for my first tattoo.
It was the rhythm of his heartbeat and under it the words "my heart still beats for you, but in a more literal sense now."
I also got random quotes of his letter around my body. On my wrist I got "I live through you."
I also got one under my breast "my heart is yours."
I live in New York now. I live in a beautiful apartment with Cadence, Daisi, and Jasper.
They're my best friends in the world. Including Kai, although he didn't move to New York with us. But we Skype or FaceTime every week. At least twice and he visits as often as he can. At least a couple times a year.
Mainly on the holidays or a couple days for my birthday. I haven't found love since Ash, but I am hopeful.
For there is a boy who goes to the same park as me. He goes every day to walk his husky. I have an all white Alaskan malamute and a Siberian husky. Which are pretty huge dogs.
Sometimes I want to purposely throw my dogs tennis ball in his direction so that I would have a reason to talk to him but knowing me and how unathletic I am (and with my bad aim and even worse luck) I would probably miss by a lot or wind up hitting him in the face. So instead I just observe his features from afar.
He has chocolate brown hair with lighter brown highlights in and beautiful grayish blue eyes. They lean more towards the gray color but certain colors make them turn blue or green.
Speaking of going to the park I'm on my way there. I'm walking my two beautiful dogs there because they have been whining since 7:30. I love them to death but sometimes they're just too much. Not really they could chew all my shoes and i could still never yell at them.
Plus my roommates love them as well. They're mainly well behaved but my husky is honestly such a drama queen at times.
Anyways on my way to the park I had downed a coffee and I had my earbuds in and a cold water bottle in hand. I had on volleyball shorts and a tank top including a black visor and sunglasses. It wasn't too hot but these dogs run around so I had to make sure that what happened before didn't happen again.
But then the unexpected happened. While I was doing my normal dog walk which consisted of walking around and semi stalking the beautiful stranger I had a hopeless crush on, my dogs, whom I love with all of my heart, ran in the direction of the beautiful stranger I have been semi stalking for a couple months now.
And next thing I knew it was like the beginning scene of 101 Dalmatians.
His dogs were barking and my dogs were barking and both my dogs went in different directions so both of our leashes got tied around us both. The amount of embarrassment I was feeling made me want to cry. But to my surprise the stranger just laughed. He began talking to my dogs and I began hopelessly trying to untangle the leashes while rambling and semi incoherent apology/excuse.
"Oh god I am so sorry I-this may be all my fault I postponed taking them out for too long and oh dear they are far too hyper. Um I'm sorry this is-this must be very awkward for you I'm so sorry."
"No, no it's fine my dog gets like this as well so I understand. But aren't you a little too..small to walk such big dogs by yourself? It seems like they pull you around." He said chuckling.
And for some odd reason this offended me.
"They do not I will have you know." And then I untangled their leashes and of course they just had to prove me wrong and began running managing to pull me with them.
He ran with us and got a hold of my malamute's leash, helping out a lot.
I smiled breathlessly at him, only slightly blushing.
"Maybe you need someone who could help you walk them." He said shyly looking everywhere but my direction.
"Perhaps I do." I said playing along. "But oh I wonder who could. I mean they are big dogs after all." I stated jokingly.
"Oh I could of course I mean look at these big guns." He said and showed me his arm while flexing. I laughed and grabbed his arm.
"Oh you mean these spongebob arms?" I said jokingly.
He scoffed, "Look who's talking! You have spaghetti noodle arms."
I lightly punched his arm. He smiled at me.
"Let me walk you home." He said grinning at me with hopeful eyes.
I smiled, "Sure."
We walked and talked about the most random of things. I found out that he lives here with his brothers and his best friend. He's only lived here a few years but he said this is the first place he has felt is a home to him. He moved here for college with all his brothers and best friend.
I told him about my life. What it was and what it is now. He listened intently. I told him and showed him my tattoos. Well all the ones that were appropriate at least. He understood and once we got to the front of my apartment he smiled at me and handed me back my leash. He was quiet for a bit and then he spoke up.
"So I'll see you tomorrow at 8:00 in the morning and in the afternoon." He said grinning.
"And why in the afternoon?" I asked slyly.
"Because i want to get to know what's behind the beautiful face I have been watching from afar for at least months now."
My heart did the fluttering thing it hadn't done since Ash was alive. I smiled widely.
"Oh but I think I've talked about myself too much I almost feel annoying."
"Perhaps you would be to someone else but I get the feeling that you could talk on for hours and I wouldn't have a problem with it, I would only be glad that it's your voice that's rambling on."
"So..does that mean it's a date?" I asked somewhat shyly.
"Oh no I just told you my best lines to go out on a platonic dinner with you." He told me with playful sarcasm.
I punched his arm and laughed.
"Well then..I'll see you tomorrow at 8:00 in 2 different instances." I said smiling.
He grinned widely.
I began walking into my apartment a stupid smile sure to be plastered on my stupid face.
I haven't found love since Ash, but I am hopeful.
The End.
