Carter
As I push the doors open to the semi fancy restaurant open I suddenly feel so underdressed. A couple people look back at me, but it feels like all eyes are on me. I sigh and slightly pull my dress down feeling insecure. I really hope I stop feeling so out of place halfway through this date, or now. Now would make it easier to breathe.
I feel awkward as my eyes scan the room and I don't see Kai. My breathing stops for a minute and my eyes widen. Did he...leave me hanging? I feel the dull ache in my chest worsen and I feel tears forming in my eyes. Then I see someone stand up and smile widely waving me over. It's Kai. I smile in relief feeling the pain go back to being dull and walk over to him.
As I reach the table I notice he looks very handsome in his black suit and tie. I shoot him a smile and he gets up and walks over to my side of the table embracing me and then kissing me on the cheek. I smile feeling my cheeks heat up. Then I see the guilty look on his face.
"What's on your mind?" I ask right as he blurts out, "I'm really sorry."
I look at him confused urging him to go on.
"I couldn't drive you because my car broke down and I was thinking of walking to your house and then walking you here, but I didn't want to make you want to walk all the way over here it's kind of a long drive let alone walk. I know that having someone else drive you here completely ruined some of my plans and made me seem like a huge douchebag and I'm honestly completely sorry if that's how I made you feel or think towards me. I hope your thoughts about me haven't gone negative."
I smile widely and mumble feeling shy all of a sudden, "It's okay, I don't think any different of you. You're still the amazing human being you were yesterday in my eyes."
He smiles relieved, "you're amazing. And you look stunning. With and without the makeup."
I blush badly, "You look rather handsome yourself."
For the rest of the date things were kind of awkward, we would sometimes run out of things to say and ask. He would always compliment my features whenever that would happen though.
You and Ash wouldn't have run out of things to say. Your only worry would have been not having enough time to get all the things you wanted to say out.
Shut up subconscious.
You know it's really bad to lead someone on like this.
Shut. Up.
You know exactly how you feel. You're just scared to admit it because you don't want to loose him, you would rather be with someone you're only kind of scared to loose. You don't want to get too attached to the way Ash makes you feel. But guess what? You already have. By now all you're doing is torturing the poor boy. And yourself by constantly denying your true feelings. You can't run and hide forever, princess.
Shut the fuck up!!
"Carter!"
I shake my head, and look up blinking multiple times, "Yeah, sorry I just..guess I got a little lost in thought there. What were you saying?"
He laughs and I smile, "Do you want to call your ride now? I'm just waiting for the check and that won't take long. But the drive will be awhile."
I nod, "Um yeah, I'll go outside to do that, it's kinda loud in here." He nods.
I walk outside and pull my phone out of my purse and begin scrolling through my contacts. Once I find Ash's contact I click on it and then as its ringing I begin pacing the parking lot.
"Hello?" I sigh in relief.
"Hey, the dates almost over, could you start driving here so you could pick me up?"
"Sure thing, be there in about 15 minutes."
"Thank you so much."
"No problem Carter."
I hang up and then as I'm about to walk in Kai walks out and laughs, "Well then, just in time I see."
I smile, "Yep."
He sits down and as I'm about to sit down as well he pulls me onto his lap. My eyes widen and I immediately feel uncomfortable. I attempt to subtly squirm around and scoot off his lap, until I hear a groan, "If I were you I would stop squirming before you feel something you don't want to feel. I didn't want you to get the nice dress you're wearing dirty. I would never push you to do something you don't want to."
I slowly relax, and blush at his choice of wording, I mumble a small, "Oh.."
He snakes his big arms around my petite waist and rests his chin on my head. I smile and slowly lean into him, kind of starting to feel the pre-autumn breeze going on tonight. He pulls me closer, and I sigh in contempt.
I think I like this feeling. Warm, safe, and happy.
But why do I still feel that dull ache?
Kai (a/n: whatttttt)
As I'm holding her keeping her warm and safe I can't help but smile down at her. Of course that dull ache rattling around inside my empty heart. I know that I am being selfish. But she has filled up a tiny part in my deserted heart. And I do not wish for that feeling to disappear as easily as she did. (a/n: just a little side note in case some of you didn't get it, he's not talking about Carter guys)
Then my sad thoughts are interrupted by bright headlights startling my Kitten and annoying me. Carter gets up and then I see him in the front seat. If I knew he would have been her ride I would have risked looking like a fool and looking like a douchebag and walked her here.
He's in love with her. I can tell. But I asked her to a date while he was being cautious. And now she is mine. Fucking mine.
She hugs me a goodbye, and I surprise her by pressing a chaste kiss to her lips. Before she could react or say something I walk away. For a single moment, my heart was almost only half empty.
Ash (a/n: well I'm just surprising everyone with these point of views today)
I watched as he gave her a quick goodbye kiss and feel the pain in my heart intensify. And with that, I realize something. I was too late. I didn't sweep her off her feet while I had the chance. I didn't ask her on a date. And now she won't be mine. This is all my fault and now I'm experiencing the ultimate heartache. Now another man is holding her, kissing her, taking her on dates and calling her his.
And I wish I could say I'm only mad because she deserves better. But I'm not mad. I'm jealous as fuck and it's killing me to watch him hold her and kiss her. Because I didn't take a risk and now I'm stuck with chronic heart pains because I have to sit and watch as the love of my life is being held by someone that isn't me.
Maybe I should try to find me someone else. Perhaps it is time to give up. Because from the looks of it, even if she were still free, she would not have returned these feelings anyway.
Sooooo just sunk le Cash ship. #sorrynotsorry
