My BestFriend My Teammate and Broken Promises

Chapter 16 Part 2

Tobin's PoV

I've been in the hospital a week now and I think I'm ready to go back. I miss Alex. I know what she did to me was terrible but I can't stay mad at her. She's my best friend and I think we can work out this problem.

I've had some visitors. Lauren and Amy visit me every day. They won't tell me anything about Alex except that she's "okay". I push the button that calls for the nurse.

She knocks on the door then comes in. "Good afternoon Tobin. What can I do for you?" She says.

"I want to leave. I know that im not going to try to kill myself again. And I miss soccer and everything else." She nods her head.

"Ok. I'll go get the papers." She says and turns around and walks out. I walk over to the bed and sit down and think about what I'm going to do when I get back.

Alex's PoV

My face looks better. I've still got some bruises but other than that I'm almost better in the face. One of my casts came off. It wasn't a very bad break. Now I've gotta wait another month for my other cast. Camp is in a month so that's good.

I hear a knock at the door. I wheel myself over to the door. Ashlyn was standing there.

"What do you want?" I ask. "Are you here to beat me up again?" I spit at her.

"No. I promise. I came here to apologize." She says. She comes into the light. Her eyes are red and puffy like she had been crying lately. I could see flesh colored bandades on her arms.

"Did you cut yourself?" I ask. I grab her arm and look at it.

"Alex I'm so sorry." She says. She is on the verge of tears now. "You've been through so much and all I did was make it worse. I hated myself after I realized what I did. I'm so, so very sorry Alex." Ashlyn falls to her knees and sobs.

"Aw Ashlyn it's alright. No need to cry. I understand why you did it and to be honest I deserved it. Your forgiven Ashlyn." I pull her up and hug her. She continues to sob in my shoulder.

"Thank you lex." She says finally.

"For what?" I ask.

"For being so forgiving." She says. Then pulls away.

"Of course. That's what friends do. Forgive each other." My thoughts wondered to Tobin.

"Alex?" Ashlyn says.

"Hmm?" I say. She looks at me straight in the eye.

"You and Tobin are meant to be best friends. You two will make up and forgive each other." She gives my shoulder a squeeze. Then leaves. I go over to the couch and pull myself onto it.

I guess I say there for a long time cause next thing I know I hear Lauren come in.

"Hey Alex. I think you should come to supper." I think about it. This something I had been thinking about all afternoon. I need to apologize to the team and coaches. Lauren asked them to stay away for a while and I'm grateful for that, but I need to see them and apologize.

"Okay." I say. This surprises Lauren.

"Really? No 'I'm not feeling well I can't go' or something like that?" She says.

"Nope. I need to apologize to the team and coaching staff. Let's go." I stand up on my good leg and plop down into my wheelchair. I'm king to get crutches soon. She wheels me out to the elevator.

When we enter the dining hall I see all my teammates and coaches looking at me. Lauren squeezes my shoulder then goes and sits down at a table with Amy. Everyone is still staring at me. I think I'm starting to have another panick attack.

"Okay so I just wanna start with apologizing. Guys. I'm so sorry for what I did to Tobin. It was stupid and wrong of me to take out my anger on her. My best friend. I'm so sorry for working it out with her. If she would've died, it would've have been my fault. I realize that now and how empty my life would feel without her. And I know you guys would to. Kelley," I say turning to her. She had tears in her eyes. "I'm so sorry for hurting your best friend. She didn't deserve any of this. Neither did you. And I know that in hurting Tobin I also hurt you. Lauren, Amy." I turn to them. "I'm so very sorry again for hurting your best friend. You've known her longer than I have and have this great relationship with her that I do t think I'll ever have or gain. If she died. You wouldn't have her hand to grab before jumping onto the field like you do before games. And that would've been all my fault. And I apologize again to all of you guys. For hurting your teammate. I'm sorry coaches for not coming to you and telling you what happened and how I felt about things. I hope you all can forgive me." I say. I have tears streaming down my face. Heather gets up.

"Aw Alex. You didn't need a big speech for us. I would've accepted a simple apology. But the speech works to." She walks over to me and hugs me. "I forgive you." She whispers in my ear.

"Thank you." I whisper back. One by one, my teammates get up and come over and give me hugs. All of them forgave me.

"I'm so glad all of you forgave me. Now I just gotta apologize to Tobin." Amy rubs my back.

"It'll be okay. She'll forgive you." Lauren says. I nod my head.

"I'm gonna go to bed now. I'll see you guys tomorrow." They give me a hug and leave. I wheel myself to the elevator. I slowly wheel myself to my room. I was thinking about how I was going to apologize to Tobin.

I manage to open the door by myself. I wheel myself to the living room and who I see on the couch terrifies me.