My BestFriend My Teammate and Broken Promises

Chapter 28

A/N: sort of a filler chapter

Alex's pov

I couldn't get him out of my head. Everything he did to me. What he did to Tobin. I glance at her without moving my head.

She was face timing the girls in New York. I've been basically ignoring her since the girls left. Why? Caude I can hardly stand seeing or hearing her without images of her in pain and screaming.

I feel bad for not talking to her. But I just can't. My head is too full of thoughts, pictures, and sounds that I don't always realize that shes talking to me. I know I've hurt her. Shes hurting and the only person who knows what shes dealing with and who can help her won't hardly talk to her.

I hear the doctors tell her everyday that I have PTS. I think that partly true. I play with my fingers a lot. A habit I've developed. She tries to talk to me everyday. After awhile she'd give up and id feel guilty.

I needed someone. And tobin was always there. But I didn't want to open up. I've become dependent on myself. I'm scared of trusting. And I think Tobin knows that.

I glance at her again. She half smiles at her phone. I see tears in her eyes. I wanted to run over to her and hold her and make the tears go away. I lush away my thoughts and listen but I listened to late.

"Okay." Tobin says softly. She takes a deep breath and puts on a smile.

"Take care of Alex. We'll see you soon!" I hear Lauren tell her. She nods.

"And take care of yourself as well." Amy says seriously.

"Don't worry about me." Tobin replies.

"Love you Tobin!" I hear kelley yell in the background. Tobin smiles a real half smile.

"Love you too Kells. Bye guys. I should to bed." What time we it? My eyes flick to the click on the wall. It takes me linger than it usually to fight it out but its 9:26. It felt like it should be it be morning still. When I look back Tobin is getting in bed and the lights have been dimmed.

"Night Lex." Tobin whispers. I nod my head. I hear her suck in air through her teeth and I look at her. She had laid down on her bad shoulder. She had those injuries cause of me.

I push the button on my bed to lay me down cause my ribs were healing still and I wants allowed to move much which was fine with me. As soon as I got as comfortable as I can I slowly fall asleep.

The next morning I wake up and find Tobin gone. I start to freak out then I hear the sink in the bathroom turn on. I calm down and close my eyes. Soon she comes back out.

The morning and afternoon is a blur. I kinda of talked to kelley today on the phone. When I was about to hang up cause my voice hurt she told me to wait.

"Hmm?" I hum.

"Please take to Tobin today." She pleads. I don't reply. I guess Tobin has been talking a lot to her.

"I know you hurt and feel guilty but tobin can help you and shes losing hope that you'll get better and talk to her. Do it for me. It'll man her day." I sigh.

"Okay." I whisper.

"Thanks. Bye alex." Kelley says.

"Bye." She hangs up and I put my phone back on the night stand. After what I counted to be half an hour Tobin talks. When try to seem happy and alright she knows I'm lying. I pause for a second to figure out I was feeling. When I look back at her she was staring at me but was spaced off. She had a dazed look on her face.

"Tobin? You alright?" I ask cautiously. She blinks and her eyes refocus on me.

"Hm? What'd you say?" I smile. A real one at her. I don't know why but I did.
"I said that you knew me so well and I don't know your favourite color." Why'd I say that? It was true though and now I'm really curious.

"Blue." She says almost immediately. I give her a look.

"Blue. Like baby blue? Or navy blue? I need more than just blue." I tell her. This time she thinks.

"Blue. As in the shocking blue of your eyes." I feel my cheeks heat up and I give her a small smile before I look back at my hands and my hair covers my face.

After a few minutes, I'm fully aware that tobin is still looking at me. But then she clears her throat and says she'll be back. I watch her go to the bathroom. I sigh and smile. A couple minutes later I get a few texts from the girls telling thank you and cheesy stuff like for talking to Tobin and making her smile and happy again.

I hear Tobin start to come out and I act asleep. She starts humming and I keep a smile back. I love hearing her hum. She goes into her own little world and its so cute. Though sometimes its scary and funny when she gets this super serious look on her face and then it starts to lighten up and then it falls.

I peek my eyed open. She was silently mouthing words and dimming the lights. Then she turns and walks back to the beds. I close my eyes. Then I feel her sift lips on my forehead.

"Night Lex. Get better. I love you." She whispers against my forehead be for pulling away. Until I fell asleep all I could think about was her lips against my skin.

A/N: oh dear my writings getting rusty. Any suggestions? That would be really helpful. Thanks for reading!