Forever Petrified Tmnt

Losing Hope

Donnie's Pov

I felt terrible, I can't believe I had been such a jerk to Furia. I knocked on her door for what felt like the hundredth time. 

"Furia?" I waited. No reply, once again. "Furia please." I begged. I can't imagine how she feels. What could she be thinking? Maybe I took to long to come to her door. After April and Casey had told me the real story I had sat down in my lab chair, contemplating what I could possibly say to her. Then I had come to her door. It's been two hours and I haven't left this spot, I can't. The guys had gone out for patrol already, I told them I needed to make things right with Furia. Other than that Splinter had gone out to get a few things. "Furia." I tapped on the door again.

Furia's Pov

I had been awake for thirty minutes now. I could hear Donnie's pleading voice calling to me as I sat in the corner of the room. He repeatedly patted the door but to me it sounded as if he was pounding cruelly on the thin wood. His small pitched whisper sounded like he was shouting. Each time he jiggled the handle to the door to see if I maybe unlocked it, the sound was amplified. Everything was to loud. 

"Furia?" His voice was kind but I heard it differently, he sounded mad, like he wanted to hurt me. I backed into the wall as much as I could. I felt tears pricking at my eyes. 

"FURIA!!" His voice screeched even though he was whispering. 

"No..." I shook my head. "Please stop."

(What Furia is seeing/hearing.)

*BANG!!!*    *BANG!!!*    *BANG!!!*

I covered my ears. 

"FURIA!!" Donnie's voice was demanding and violent. 

"Stop..." I said quietly. 

*BANG!!!*      *BANG!!!*      *BANG!!!*

"FURIA!!!" His voice was demonic. My chest racked vigorously with each sob. Tears freely rolled down my cheeks. Donnie was the only one I had. Even with my father in the picture and the turtles, April, and Casey. Donnie was the one of the ones who fully understood me. The other was Casey but losing Donnie made my whole body hurt. 

Donnie's Pov 

I tapped on the door again.

"Furia?" I pressed my ear to the door to hear the sound of loud muffled sobbing. "Furia?!" My voice cracked with worry. The only answer I received was more crying. I can't do this anymore, I need to get in there. I took out a bobby pin and started to pick the lock. I stuck out my tongue as I worked until I heard the sweet click of the door unlocking. I grabbed the handle and twisted. The door moved forward not even one inch. I peek into the small crack to see everything was blocking the door. I took a deep breath and pushed on the door with all my might. I could hear the furniture falling and tumbling, scrapping against the floor. Finally I got it open wide enough to squeeze through. I climbed over the bed and landed firmly on the ground. I frantically looked around. That's when I saw her, I had almost missed her. She was cramped into a corner. I quickly slid over, sitting infront of her. 

"Furia?" I reached my hand out but retracted quickly when suddenly Furia screamed. 

"NO STOP!!" She covered her ears and closed her eyes tightly, never ending tears streamed down her cheeks. 

"Furia its okay, It's just me." I touched her arm and she opened her eyes wide. She looked at me frightened, like I might hurt her. 

Furia's Pov

'I don't love you anymore'

The words repeated in my mind as I stared at Donnie. I stood up quickly and backed into the wall. He stepped closer. His grip on my arm seemed to tighten. 

"Furia?"

I ripped out of his grip and ran out of my room in one swift movement. I could hear him yelling after me but I chose to ignore Donnie as I kept running. I turned my head back to see him squeezing out of my room and started to run to me. My whole body suddenly stopped when I slammed into something, or rather someone. I fell onto the ground roughly. I held my head in pain but recovered very quickly. I jumped up to see Splinter standing there, a worried expression plastered on his face. The look of pity. The look I was all to used to. People would see me getting bullied and give me that look. Teachers would give me that look. The look that people show when they see someone homeless. Like you are the most pitiful thing they have ever seen. Yep that's the look my father was giving me.

"Furia!" Donnie came running towards me. 

"No!" I yelled angrily. My voice was strict and held no hint of emotion. Donnie stopped in his tracks, skidding to a stop infront of me. 

I just couldn't take it, my own father pitying me. No. I wouldn't have it. I needed to fix my life and stop running away from my problems. 

"I don't want you talking to me anymore." I demanded. 

"But Furia I just wanted to..." I broke into his sentence. 

"No! Okay? No. You will not speak to me unless it's for training or anything else along those lines, other than that never speak to me again Donatello." I stomped my foot down and turned my back to Donnie to face my father. His look of pity still gleamed in his eyes but the rest of his face was blank. 

"I wish to have Meditation Session with you father." I bowed my head. He looked so surprised of how easily I had changed emotion. 

No more fussing over Donatello or my feelings. From now on I will only concentrate on school, meditation, and my fighting. And making sure I never get that look ever again. Donnie was just holding me back, I don't need him. All it took was the look of... regret in my fathers eyes. Does everyone look at me that way? Everyone? Do April and Casey look at me that way? Like I'm pathetic? I don't want them to pity me anymore. I don't want anyone to ever look at me that way again. I will be the person people will look at and think to themselves, 'Wow that girl looks happy.' 

"O-Of course." Splinter finally stumbled out. I smiled and headed to the dojo. I could hear him talking to Donnie. Splinter telling him just to give me time, I'll forgive him...

I won't

I walked in and sat down, getting in position for meditation. 

~~Three Hours Later~~

Leo's Pov

We came home to see Furia out of her room and throwing punches at the punching bag. There was no expression on her face. It remained blank. 

She didn't greet us. 

Just continued to throw punch after punch aimlessly at the bag. 

I knew right away something was wrong. I watched as Mikey jumped over the couch, a giant smile on his face.

"Oh bro your out of your room!" He shouted waving his arms like a bird trying to take off. 

"Yep." Furia replied plainly and continued to punch. Mikey looked back at me. We shared the same expression, worry. 

"So uh where's your boyfriend?" Raph crossed his arms. As soon as the word boyfriend left his lips Fuira punched the bag full force, sending it across the room. I stared at her shocked. 

"One, He's not my boyfriend. Two, I don't care." She rolled her eyes and headed to her bedroom. I could see her clenching her fists tightly at her sides. Raph turned to me. 

"Okay we need to figure out what Donnie did." I said quickly and we headed to the lab. When I opened the door we could all see Donnie working on a project but he didn't seem to be into it. His face held a bored expression mixed with an expression of thought. 

"Alright Donnie what did you do?" Raph crossed his arms. 

Oh great.

Donnie looked up then make down, sighing loudly.

"Well..." He started from the beginning and went through everything that happened.