Forever Petrified Tmnt

Hidden Feelings

Furia's Pov

I pulled at my hair. 

I hadn't even thought about stepping out of my room after the show I had put on last night.

'Why can't I do this?' 

It seemed so easy at first but then when Raph had said the word boyfriend it felt like I might cry again. I had forced all my sadness into anger all at once. I had showed them that I'm vulnerable. I can't do that. I need to hide all emotion. My emotions have only gotten in the way. If I don't show anything, no one will know. I will have to become a paper doll. Flat and lifeless. A smile on the front but on the back all my pain will be hidden. 

*Knock*  *Knock*

I jumped as the sudden noise filled the silent room. I stared at the door for a while, what seemed like hours before I finally responded. 

"Who is it?" My voice held no emotion just boredom. I could hear whoever was on the other side of the door nervously shifting from one foot to the other. I sat up on my bed so I would be able to hear clearly.

"It's uh Leo." He spoke with worry. I clenched my fists. I didn't want him to worry about me. I didn't want any of their worry or pity. I took a deep breath and slowly let it out, unclenching my fists. 

"What do you require?" My voice held a little of cheer, to show him he had no need to worry. 

"Well I was wondering if I could talk to you." His voice was more confident than the last time he had spoken. "Would you be able to open the door and allow me in?" Leo added quickly. 

"Alright, hold on." My voice was timid as I responded. I stood from my bed and walked to the door. It was easy since I had put all my furniture back the way it should be. The click of the door seemed to echo in my silent room. I opened the door at a medium speed. I didn't want to seem eager or upset by opening it too fast or too slow. 

Leo stared at me, as if he was trying to decode me. 

I smiled warmly at him. I had no problem acting happy to see him. I loved Leonardo, he was my brother. 

I gestured for him to enter my room. 

I was having no problem being nice to Leo, considering he didn't do anything. 

I closed the door and turned to see Leo had taken a seat on my bed. He stared at me as I made my way to my desk chair, pulling it over next to the bed and sitting down. We stared at each other, waiting. Leo seemed to be trying to read me, see what I was feeling, like he had been at the door. 

"So?" I leaned forward, showing him that I was curious of why he had come to my room.

"Oh right." Leo blinked as if coming out of a trance. "I wanted to see if you were okay." He seemed to ask more than state. 

"Yeah I'm fine." I grinned. I could see Leo shift under my gaze.

"Are you sure I mean the way you reacted in the living room..." Leo trailed off, looking at the ceiling. 

He knows.

Donnie must have told him. 

Alright I have to step it up a notch.