Forever Petrified Tmnt

Realization

Furia's Pov

My eyes slowly drifted open to see Donnie looking down at me. My head hammered with the familiar agonizing pain I had felt earlier that day. The room was spinning, slowly deciding to stop. Donnie was writing down on his clipboard, he hadn't realized that I had my eyes open yet. The ache in my head subsided and I let out a breath. I stared at Donnie as his blank expression revealed nothing.

"Hey." I finally managed to say. Donnie almost dropped his clipboard as my voice broke through his thoughts.  

"Heh sorry, didn't mean to scare you." I smiled, sitting up, criss-cross style, in the bed. Donnie blushed as he tried to recompose himself, trying not to look embarrassed. I chuckled as Donnie rubbed his arm uncomfortably. He's so cute when he's nervous. 

No Furia stop! You can't do this. You can't like him, Donnie was cruel to you! 

That sentence made me freeze.

My mom had been cruel to me... She had hurt me... But I still loved her...

I still love Donnie, no matter how much I try to hide it. No matter how much he hurt me I still like him. 

I can't do this anymore, I can't go on pretending. I need to forgive and forget.

"So how am I doctor?" I smirked knowing Donnie would turn a bright red before the words even left my mouth. 

"Uh um well you had a minor concussion but you should be fine." He stumbled out. I jumped off the bed coming nose to nose with Donnie. I gulped, the bed was in the way of me stepping back. I was stuck. 

"So?" Donnie asked as he took a step back. I let out a small breath of relief. No matter how hard I try he still gives me butterflies. "I've been wanting to talk to about what I said to you a little while ago." 

I froze. Why would Donnie want to remind me of why I had hated him? Why I had locked myself in my room? Remind me of the hurtful words that had flown freely out of his mouth.

"I didn't mean it." He paused. 

I wanted to retort, scream, shout, make a sarcastic remark. I wanted to yell, 'you didn't mean it really?' But I stopped myself. People say a lot of things they don't mean when they're angry. 

I sighed and nodded for him to continue. 

"Well... I saw Casey kiss you on the cheek. I expected you to push him away, shout at him. But you didn't, I felt heartbroken. I thought you had been leading me on this whole time, you never even liked me. I yelled at you because I wanted to make you feel how I felt. I wanted you to know that you had hurt me. I'm sorry, I went too far when I didn't know the whole story." He frowned. Donnie's face held a pained expression, like I had just kicked him in the gut. I looked down.

How could he think that Casey and I were ever a couple. Ew! I love Casey as a brother, that's all. But I could understand Donnie, seeing the girl he likes get kissed by Casey. If I saw April kiss Donnie I'd be heartbroken. I mean I was jealous when they were just talking. 

"I..." Donnie voice broke through the stale silence. I looked up in flash, surprised by the sudden noise of his voice. We locked eyes. 

"I had no right to yell at you. Especially since I didn't know anything. I..." I held up a hand silencing Donnie. He gave me a expression of confusion.

"No." My voice was strong, confident when I was anything but. "Donnie I shouldn't have let your words get to me. I should have told you about my "relationship" with Casey earlier. I should have stayed after you stopped yelling and explained. But I didn't. I..." I sentence broke. My voice didn't crack didn't fade. It was as if I had been put on pause. I took a deep breath for what I was about to say was going to be a little difficult. 

"I am weak. I run from my problems. I always have. I may charge at the enemy but when it gets to be too much I flee instead of standing my ground. I am weak. When I found out the family I had come to know was the reason for my mutation, I yelled at them and then fled from the scene. I am weak. When you spoke cruedly to me, I fled instead of staying and giving you the truth. I am weak." My voice was full of power, it didn't break or crack as I spoke. But my voice was filled with emotion, determination in showing Donnie I was the blame and he need not to feel bad. I stared at Donnie, my face still full of determination in getting my point across. He seemed shocked by my sudden speech. I mean it isn't easy revealing a flaw like that in yourself to someone especially if they never thought of it that way before. Donnie's eyes were wide with shock and his lips parted. I waited for a reply to come from his lips. But Donnie stood firm, surprise written all over his face. So I decided to continue.

"I hope you can forgive me." I spoke calmly but on the inside I felt on the edge of my seat. What if he says no? I just reminded him of some of the worst memories together. He will probably dislike me. I mean I'm weak, no one wants to be with a girl who can't stand her ground.

"I forgive you, I can make you stronger." Donnie smiled at me. I broke into a laugh almost falling down. I was so happy but...

"That was so cheesy." I chuckled out. Donnie rolled his eyes and pulled me towards him. 

"Okay Okay now I have one question for you." He paused giving me a sly smirk. "Will you be my girlfriend Furia?" 

I felt speechless, even though I was expecting him to ask me out soon it still caught me off guard. I felt my heart beating a hundred miles an hours and my stomach felt like someone had tied it in knots. 

However with a very feeble voice I responded, 

"Of course."

In an instant Donnie face lit up and he connected our lips together. I sunk into the kiss. I missed this. What do people call it?

Happiness?

No. No. I know...

Love

It's felt like forever. With pain and sorrow around ever corner it's hard to notice it. It's so small sometimes. Donnie loves me, I'm his girlfriend. Casey loves me, I'm his sister. The other Turtles love me, I'm their sister. April loves me, I'm her renewed best friend. Splinter loves me, I'm his daughter. 

Donnie broke the kiss so we could catch our breath.

There is one person I need to get back on good terms with.

"Donnie I want you to come with me to talk to my mom."