"GOD NADYHA. YOUR SUCH A SLUT" he screamed
"Baby I'm home" I said as I walked into our apartment we had together.
"Where were you" he asked getting up and walking over to me
"I was with Cameron. I told you we were gonna hang out tonight" I said getting aggravated he didn't remember "I told you like 6 times" I sighed
"Um no you didn't. What were you doing" he asked
"We just watched a movie" I said walking away from him.
That was 10 minutes ago. Now we were screaming at each other.
"how the fuck am I a slut Matthew" I asked
"HOW MANY OF MY FRIENDS HAVE YOU SLEPT WITH" he said "I mean besides Cameron but who else" he asked me. He was breathing deeply.
"None of them. I love you" I whispered.
"No you don't. And I don't love you" he said before walking out of the apartment.
I walked to the bedroom and collapsed onto matts side of the bed. I started crying curling myself into his sweatshirt.
•••
2 months later
I rolled off the couched not letting go of the new soft kitten I recently had just gotten for comfort since Matt left. I walked over to the door looking in the mirror as I walked past. I've looked better. I opened the door.
Matt was wearing khakis colored shorts, a Hurley shirt and black vans. And for me. My hair was knotty, my eyes were puffy, I didn't eat a lot, I was wearing a sports bra and sweatpants. He looked happy and amazing compared to me.
"Hey" he smiled
"Hi" I whispered
"Can I come in" he asked
"Of course" I said moving. I closed the door behind him. "You look good" I said sitting back down on the couch.
The kitten laid down and fell asleep in my lap.
"I tried to look good for this. Because I haven't been" he said
"Oh" I whispered "I didn't realize you were coming over" I said looking at him.
"It's ok. We need to talk" he said sitting next to me.
"What's wrong" I asked
"These past two months have been hell for me. Like I haven't been able to eat or sleep or anything. Just last week was the first time I actually went out. I need you back" he said
"I don't know Matt" I whispered.
"Why" he asked
"Because. You hurt me. So badly. And I can't go through that again. For 2 months you went off the grid. You wouldn't even talk to me. You just left. You said you didn't love me. I can't do that again" I started crying.
"I didn't mean it. I was so mad. At you. At myself. I couldn't handle everything. I needed to get away and I said some of the worst things I possibly could. So I went to the only place that could help me. I went home. Back to Virginia. (I think that's right) I don't think you understand how much I need you" he finished.
"Matt. I want to get back together with you but I can't just jump back into it. I need to go slow" I said
"I understand" he smiled
"Thank you" I said.
"Now who's this little guy" he asked petting the baby kitten that was laying in my lap.
"I haven't found a name yet" I said
"What about Derek" he said
"It's a girl" I laughed
"Austin" he shrugged
"Okay. This is Austin" I smiled
"She's a cutie" he smiled "just like her mommy" he said
