Watch What Happens

Chapter Seventeen

This is a shorter chapter and one of the last. I'm going to try to go to twenty maybe even stretch it to twenty-five if I can, but no promises. However there will be a sequel.

+ Rachel +

"Is that the Jessica girl you were telling me about?" Sky asks.

"Yep," I say, showing more annoyance than I wanted to.

"Do you want to go somewhere else then?" He sweetly suggests.

"No, it's fine. I couldn't care less," I say.

"Okay," he says not fully convinced.

We both start looking through the menu and I glance up at Josh and Jessica every now and then. Why are they together? More importantly why are they acting like a couple. How did they even meet? This makes zero sense. I look back at my menu and try to figure out what I want. Though seeing them act all lovey dovey as if they're freshmen in their first relationship makes me almost lose my appetite. I want to know how and when this all happened. Out of all the people either of them could go out with it just had to be each other.

I find myself glancing over to their table more than I should. I have no idea why I'm doing this though, it's not like I care. I'm with Sky.

Throughout the dinner I try to stay focused on what Sky is saying but for some reason I just can't focus. I'm not even thinking about anything I'm just not aware of what's around me. Everything doesn't feel real, it all feels like a dream. I have no idea why.

"You know?" I hear Sky ask and I snap back to my senses.

"Um, yeah," I quickly say trying to hide the fact that I wasn't listening.

He makes a face, "Are you sure you're okay?"

"Yeah," I look down at my plate and see I haven't even made a dent, but I feel like I have, weird. "I'm fine," I say slightly confused.

I know he's not falling for my act at all, and I know he will try to ignore it. He won't say anything about it, he'll just sit back and wait for me to open up. Some of me loves that and some of me hates it. I love it because if I start opening up about something I'll never close and now I don't feel like I have to talk about stuff that will make me talk for hours. Though I feel like if I'm never asked to open up I never will, then everything will just stay bottled up inside my head and I'll just explode one day.

Back when Josh and I were together we had a good balance going. He would know when I was upset and he could tell if I wanted to talk about it or not. He'd always be there when I needed a shoulder to cry on, holding me tight and tell me everything would be okay. Though back then I had different things to cry about. I would mainly go to him crying when I was feeling insecure or if I hated how I looked, he'd tell me I was beautiful and that he loved everything about me. Now I just want to cry about things that no words can fix, I want to cry for my parents, for my siblings, for my old life before everything came crashing down. I want to cry over stuff that I don't want to bring Sky into, stuff I don't want to bring anyone into.

I start to engage in the conversation with Sky, we are talking about how he got started in dance when I look at our hands. He's holding mine and I look at his wrist, at his watch in particular. It seems familiar, but I peel my eyes away before I can become to engrossed with it.

I glance over at Josh and Jessica one more time and I'm almost sick at the sight. He just kissed her. My head starts to spin and nothing feels real, it feels like I'm falling. Then it all passes, and I'm back to normal.

"Why don't we start heading over to the movie theater?" Sky suggests and I didn't evenly realize we were done with dinner.

"Yeah," I say while standing up.

He takes my hand and we walk out of the restaurant. As we walk down the street I feel a sting in my chest, then it goes away, then it comes back, then it goes away again.

What is happening to me? Am I dying?

I choose to ignore all the weird and unusual things going on with me. It can't be anything serious.

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After the movie, which I thought was amazing, we start to walk back to the hotel. When get to my room Sky stops. He takes both of my hands in his and just looks at the floor.

"What's wrong?" He asked.

"What do you mean? Nothing's wrong," I try to say. I look at our hands, at his wrist, and I suddenly know where his watch is from. "Where'd you get this?" I quickly ask taking his wrist.

"Why are you changing the subject?"

I look him dead in the eyes. "Where did you get this?"

He sees now that I'm not messing around and he starts to seem nervous.

"Josh gave it to me, why?" He asks.

"He gave this to you?" I half yell. "How could he do such a thing?"

"What do you mean by that?" He asks sounding hurt but I'm too mad to even feel bad about it.

"I gave that to him, specifically to him, he shouldn't have just given it away like that," I shake my head. "It was meant for him."

"Why is it a big deal if he gave it to me?" He asks trying to sound more sympathetic than jerky.

"Because that watch is important to me like he is," I shout before I can think and I instantly regret saying that.

A hurt look washes over Sky's face and he pulls his hands away from mine.

"Are you saying I'm not important to you?" He asks quietly.

"No, I'm not saying that," I quickly say.

"Then why does it matter that I have it now?" He asks. "Or do you still have feelings for Josh?"

"No, I swear I don't," I say too quickly.

"I saw you watching him the whole time at dinner," he says choking up. "I just didn't say anything because I didn't want to believe it."

"Sky-"

"I'm not going to go through this," he shakes his head. "I'm done," he shrugs. "Maybe if you get everything together we can be together, but until then..." He trails off and a tear breaks free from his eyes but he instantly wipes it away.

"Please, don't," I beg, tears starting to form in my eyes.

"We're over," he says and storms off.

I can't move for a second and I just stand in the hallway as tears start to stream down my face.

What just happened?