Rebirth (Book 4)

Firsts

For two years
Life didn't exist
Suspended animation
Was what I called
My solitary being

Then a massive
Breakthrough
I stopped breathing
And a light source
Brighter then the sun
Shot through my body

I was alive!
And that's where the
Firsts
Began

First breath
First real meal
First ability to keep food in
First time sleeping with door shut
First ability to walk without help or a wheelchair
First ability to eat sitting at a table

First time feeling energy after walking
First time making the bed
First time not spending the day in bed
First prayer
First time listening to music that me happy

First time not canceling doctors appointments
First time in a car
First time at the beach
First time wearing clothing that weren't sweatpants or pajamas
First time talking to humans outside of Facebook

First time driving
First errand
First shopping trip
First time buying clothes
First time spreading awareness of ME
To the world

First shower without help or
The senior citizen chair
First trip outside the state
First time driving most of it
First major vacation

First time dancing
First time in heels
First time doing a lot of my favorite hobbies
First time meeting new people
And not feeling like a freak
First time seeing old friends
And loving every minute of it

First time allowing photos of myself taken
Without being in pajamas and in bed
First time allowing myself to think of a Recovery without a cure
First time forgiving everyone ever that hurt me
First time letting shallow,
Fake people take themselves out
First time letting everyone
Go in peace and with G-d

August 1st was my rebirth and all those
Firsts have happened since then
I now look forward to
Every moment of my future

After first
Will come
Seconds
Thirds
And
Eternity