Dorm 188 (Thomara fanfic)

Chapter 16

"Pa." the word keeps replaying over and over in my head. It even feels like a curse for me. The first thing or word that comes through my mind when I heard that is How? I stood frozen in my spot didn't even bother looking at her and to whom she's pertaining to. I thought I could just forget about what she just said and never open about it again. But that's what I just thought.

Her cries came crashing like waves from the sea. I knew I couldn't run away from what's happening. I slowly turned my head to her direction and with a glimpse I saw her on the ground crying like there's no tomorrow with the picture frame securely wrapped around her arms. I slowly walk to her and kneeled beside her. She immediately wrapped her arms around me and continued to cry. I don't know what to do at this moment actually. I can't comfort her if I myself is not in a good condition. I just hugged her and rubbed her back softly the way my mom does it when I was a kid. I didn't even felt the coldness of her being I think its because of mixed emotions flooding through me. I wasn't aware of the surroundings nor her. My mind kept stating questions that can't be answered.

How did my grandfather suddenly became his father? I was raised by lolo when mom and dad where in the states, so how come he didn't tell anything about his daughter? I was left here with only my lolo by my side, why didn't my parents bring me with them in the states? Is this confusing feeling with Ara because of our secret relationship with each other? If yes, who are you Ara Galang? What are you to me? And what am I to you?

We stayed like that for a good few hours. Not caring about anything else just I and she. In our own little world of confusion and sadness. We decided to stay the night here, we still wanted aome answers. And the searching was left for tomorrow. Searching won't be bearable with our bad state. I got the camping materials and build it outside the house. In the garden with withered flowers that we used to water, the green grass that fought death, and the stars as the main attraction nothing more is missing than my beloved grandpa. As I build the tent I realized, I miss him the lolo that taught me how to bike, who taught me how to be happy and be contented with simple things, the lolo that taught me about love. As cheesy as it seemed boys do love unconditionally too. With all the thoughts that passed I realized that I finished building the tent and setting the place. I also added a blanked just right outside the tent and decided to lie there.

"Thomas." Her soft whisper suprised me.

"Ara, you scared me!" I said stumbling a bit with my position and held my hand right in my heart.

"I'm really confused." She added. I didn't know how to react I feel the same as her.

"Ako din." I guess we have to face this together.

"Hindi ko alam kung ano ka, kung anong papel mo sa buhay ko noon." I just stared at her I was about to say something but she put her finger in my lips signalling to keep quiet.

"But right know in this time, I know what you are to me. And it is clear very clear." I knew that was coming its either the painful one but appreciative or the lovely one but complicated.

"So tell me then what am I to you?" 'Cause I know you're the one for me.

Dalawang buwan guys whaaaa I can't believe it! natiis ko kayo ng gagon katagal! Sorry talaga! Hope you're still interested with the story be confused with what's happening ah! Thank you sa mga nagpush sakin na wag igive up ung story, simple messages like that boost my confidence dahil nalalaman ko na gusto nyo na ituloy ko!