Dorm 188 (Thomara fanfic)

Chapter 19

Paano mo nga ba malalaman na may mahal ka na?

Sabi nila kapag daw mabilis ung tibok ng puso mo kapag nakikita mo siya.

Natutulala ka na lang kapag bigla mo siyang naiiisip.

Siya ung nasa utak mo bago ka matulog.

Siya rin ang nakikita mo kapag minulat mo ang mga mata mo.

Pero higit sa lahat,

Gagawin mo ang lahat para sa ikakabuti niya, masaktan ka man o umiyak

at lalong lalo na ipaglalaban mo siya

Yun ung mga tanong na tumatakbo sa isip ni Ara.

But these feelings aren't made for us.

Love is made for the living creatures.

Para sa mga may buhay.

Sa may puso na tumitibok.

But I'm a ghost, lost and only here to find my way back to where I belong.

Un ung mga bagay na tumatakbo sa isipan ni Ara habang nakatitig sa labas ng bintana.

It's already midnight, the sky though is wide awake. The only thing audible is the crashing of the heavy droplets of water in the roofs. Thoughts clouded the ghost's mind as she waits for his coming. After the little fight they had at the arena her emotions went crazy. Even after witnessing the beautiful scene that happened a while ago her mind is still focused on him. The one that makes her crazy. The one that makes her feel human. But the person that makes her feel different left her all alone. Para makasama ang mga taong totoong parte ng buhay niya. Kung baga sa isang book she's just a filler. Isa siyang extra. She only existed to entertain Thomas. Wherein unlike Arra whose a main character, hindi siya ganun kahalaga. She can easily be forgotten. Wala siyang big impact sa buhay ni Thomas.

"Kahit naman ang isang extra may karapatan ring masaktan diba?" She thought.

"Pero walang karapatan ang isang multo para maramdaman ang sakit." She laughed while she thought of it.

Bakit nga ba siya nasasaktan? Dahil bigla na lang umalis si Thomas pagkatapos nilang makita ang isang good memory? Hindi naman makakaila na si Ara ang babaeng nakita nilang tumatakbo. She was happy for a moment. She was happy to see her human version happy. But Thomas isn't.

She could just easily leave him alone. She can cut her ties with him in a snap. But she can't. She doesn't want to. She was too close at admitting her feelings when...

A thunder roared.

She flinched and curled into a ball as if she were a kid afraid of the thunder. This is just one of those things that she can't understand. She's afraid of thunderstorms. And for the past 18 years she always go through hell whenever storms like this happens.

Because whenever a thrunder strikes, a bad memory appears.

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Thomas' Pov

I don't know what came to me. I was easily angered by the 'good memory' that flashed in the arena. And the funny thing is, hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nagalit. I should have been happy. Dapat masaya ako para sa kanya. Kasi nakakita nanaman siya ng isang good memory.

You know what, fuck that. Wala akong pakealam. I don't care about that good memory. Walang akong pake sa mga nangyari kanina. Dapat masaya ako. Specially nanalo kami sa game kanina. At dahil ako ang POG.