Dorm 188 (Thomara fanfic)

Chapter 15

I watched her as she closes her eyes and lean her head on the window. I knew something's not right. I was easily locked under her spell. But as the thoughts clouded in my head I immediately shrugged it off and continued to drive. The sun has already set yet still we're in our own little road trip. It's been a month since a miracle came into my life. Not like any other miracles that inloves winning the lottery or winning some kind of contest with a jackpot prize. Mine was so much more. We have some similarities actually. We're both alone before that date. She was alone physically and I was mentally. But that was before. She was the greatest birthday gift that I received in my entire life. But just like any other precious gifts, it fades away. I continue to fall in love with her like the way I shouldn't be. Those eyes that melts me, those smile that makes me smile nor the sound of her laugh was the reason I love her. I love her because, I love her. And whatever the reason is, my heart only knows it.

And every day, as we come closer and closer, as I fall deeper and deeper, I was hurt again and again. I am hurt. Because every time I open my eyes and start the day, every time we find some clues or evidences, I knew the end is coming. And I'm afraid when the game ends, I've fallen in the deep. But those wasn't the case. The real thing here is I know I'm falling deeper, but I'm not stopping myself from falling much more. I know I'll be hurt but I risk everything. Because I love her. But she only needs me. and there's this fine line between love and need. I need her because I love her and I love him because I need him is really different. We may use the same words or letters, but they're so much different.

"Thomas? Malayo pa ba?" I was suprised when she spoke. She wasn't speaking since we entered the highway.

"Medyo. Magpahinga ka muna." I said. I wasn't really in the mood to speak with her. I was hurt with what I am thinking back then.

"May problema ba tayo Thomas? You look kinda tensed?" So she noticed it then. Its kind of awkward driving when you know she's watching intently.

Well since its our first match is today and we're just rookies, I ditched it actually. But not like ditch it without permission. I asked coach if I could skip the first match and I kind of lied because I used a reason involving family.

"Dahil ba to duon sa hindi ka na kalaro ngayon? Sabi sayo eh. Dapat di muna tayo tumuloy." She worriedly said.

"Hindi Ara. Wag mo muna akong intindihin. I woke up on the wrong side of the bed." I said cutting her off. Actually it is true. Para bang I woke up with something bothering my heart.

"Vic?" She was shocked at first. Minsan ko lang ginagamit ang Vic. Lalo na pagseryoso.

"Hhm?" She looked at me and I started at her. Hindi ko ata kayang sabihin.

"I'm afraid." I looked away once I said it. But I feel her heavy stares. Everyday as I discover more of myself, I found out that I am weak.I'm afraid of little things like getting hurt.

"Afraid of what?" Takang takang tanong niya.

"Afraid of losing you, even though you're never mine." I said, without looking at her.

So the trip ended without anyone talking. Both of us were afraid that with a single move everything will fall and break into pieces. I stop the engine at a familiar environment. My grandfather's house. The memories were fresh actually, I still remember how they nurtured me and taught me the most important things in life. As I examine the place, I realized that it was not notice nor remember by any. The house has crack walls and broken windows. Dust lived on it. I almost even forgot about Ara. I looked at her on my side and her mouth was wide open. Her eyes were even bigger than before. So I tried.

"May naalala ka ba." I asked her. She was cut off with looking at the place. She smile and started to talk.

"Wala." She simply said with her lips smiling wide.

"Huh? Eh Bakit ang laki ng ngiti mo." I asked.

"I think malapit na. Malapit ko nang maalala. I'm feeling something.... different." With that my whole world crashes. Pero ung ngiti nya na un, that will always be on my mind and in my heart.

We decided na pumasok sa loob. The wooden floor creaked and dust welcome us. She was roaming around while I was remembering the memories. She was looking on the table with the picture frames, pero I was frozen in my place. I miss them. I miss those nights na masaya with them. I looked at what Ara is doing, she was holding a picture in a frame and she was lookibg intently on it. I was about to ask her something....

"Pa?" She said out of nowhere.

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Sorry talaga guys. Nanging busy lang sa school at iba pa. Short ud muna ha. sorry talaga. I want to know what you think sa buong story, pagamit lang ng #Dorm188 sa anu mang social media sites. pwede ring comment nyo or message. I did miss writing kaya sana continue to vote and read po.