Jiall
Dear Diary
I know it’s been a while so I’ll just start from the beginning, it all started with me getting sick. Then Kenny making me go to the doctors, to fine out I was pregnant. The thing is I was raped 2 months before that,
A tear fell from my eye and onto the paper making raped blur from the water
I dont even want to think this is my rapist baby, I hope its Niall’s. oh ya Niall and I are dating I finally told him I like him, and to my luck he liked me back. But back to me being pregnant I found out I was two month but that doesn’t means that it’s not Niall, you know people have s3x often so it still could be Niall’s. that same day I told Niall about the rape which didn’t go to well, Niall got sick and then blamed himself for not protecting me but when I told him I was pregnant and I would get rid of if he wanted me to. I got s totally different reaction he said it would matter if it was the rapist baby or his he would love it as his own, so I kept it months have past good months. When I was 4 months we wanted to keep the gender a surprise, and Niall was the sweetest he would love on me all the time cuddling, rubbing my belly, just being that man I fell in love with. When I was 6 months I feel so bad now I was such a bitch mood swings, and that month my nightmares got worse to ya I’ve had been having nightmares about the rape but they were worse when I was 6 months. Niall loved how big I got always cursing my belly he would sing and play his guitar which the baby loved, lets just say I was scared keeping me up at night that and the baby. The 8th Month came Niall was like a crazy person running around the flat getting everything read, he did the baby’s room in 3 days and that includes the baby crib and cloths everything. He every had the baby bag ready on his side of the bed, he would stay up half the night I kept telling him I need him to sleep so he was fully there when I do go into labor that worked thank god. 9 months is when it happen when I went into labor, I gave birth natural and had a little girl. She had blonde fuzzy hair and blue I don’t know how it happened but it did, I think it was Mother Nature way of showing me I’m ok. That day I changed into a father with the man that gave me this beautiful baby girl, Niall broke down in tears that day so did I but I think it was different for him knowing he was the father of the baby.
It been 2 years since that month our little girl is like an angle blonde hair down to her shoulder, blue eyes that take your breath away, and the apatite like her father.
She’s our Lucy our little Lucy
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SRRY IT WAS SHORT BUT I LIKE IT FOR MY FIRST DIARY
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