After Breaking Dawn

Safe. Right?

Renesmee POV

We got home in a flash. I started to have a dislike for going out. Guys and girls could be so obnoxious! Whatever. At least I had Jake. He seemed a little tense in the car, so I held his hand. He looked over at me and just smiled a sweet smile. When we got home, it was time to tell everyone our great news. Including my parents. That should be interesting. Auntie Rose had the door open, waiting. She came home early! We walked in and I walked into my Uncle Jasper's expecting arms. He hugged me tight and kissed my forehead. As soon as he let go, Uncle Emmett tossed me up and caught me, bear hugging me. I saw Auntie smack his head. "What did I say about sufficating my niece!?" she snapped. "Our niece, babe." he corrected. She rolled her eyes as he set me down. I ran into Auntie Rose's arms. I had such a bond with each of them, I could look at them all and tell them they were my favorite, and mean it. She picked me up and carried me over to Jake. We all moved to the couch, I went over to Uncle Jasper and I sat in his lap. "Wheres my parents and grandparents? Did everyone else come home early?" I asked curiously. "Carlisle is working and yes the rest are hunting." Auntie Rose said informatively. "Okie Dokie." I said, suddenly exhausted. I snuggled into my Uncles chest and fell asleep. I was awakened slightly by the lack of cold, but fell right back asleep when I felt it again. I figured someone else had me now. I was too tired to care. When I woke up, I was in my Daddy's arms. "Daddy!" I squealed. As I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him tightly. "How did you rest sleepyhead? he asked me teasingly. "Horrible. I was freezing" I countered sarcastically while faking a shiver. Everyone left except my parents and Jake. Poor Jake thought I was serious. "Do you need me honey? I can fix the cold?" he said, already on his feet and crouched in front of me, rubbing my thigh in warm soothing circles. "I was being sarcastic, but now that I feel the difference, I wouldn't mind" I answered as I shivered for real. Jake took me in his arms, he held me firm and close to him, the heat enveloping me. Uncle Jasper, Uncle Emmett, and my Daddy were the only Vampire's laps I could fall asleep in. I felt bad, I couldn't even fall asleep in my moms. "So. Jake was just telling us about last night and this morning." Mom said carefully. "We know everything." she added, stressing the last word. I got out of Jake's lap and put my hand to her face, I played back ALL the memories, last night, this morning, the girls throwing themselves at Jake. "Some girls have no class." I thought to my mom. "No honey, but did you notice all those boys staring at you?" My mom asked. "No. I had Jake." I replied honestly. I was suddenly swept away in warm arms being kissed on the cheek repeatedly. I giggled a musical giggle. Jake stopped and set me back on my feet. I wrapped my arms around him and held him in a big hug. "I love you Renesmee" My dad and Jake said at the same time. Awkward. "I love you both, very much." I said endearingly. I meant it too. I loved them more than words could even begin to describe. "I know I saw everything from Jake's perspective, but did you want to show me yours?" my dad asked, slightly awkward. He probably didn't want to see his baby be... Deflowered... Again, but he also probably wanted to know everything from my perspective. "Of course Daddy!" I said as I tried to untangle myself from Jakey and once I did, I put my hand on my daddy's face. I replayed EVERYTHING. He laughed. Why was he laughing? "What's so funny Edward?" my mommy asked curiously. "You're right. She didn't notice all the other boys. Ironically, the more she ignored them, the more they craved her attention." Jake stifled a growl. I really didn't notice other guys when I was with Jake. I turned and jumped in Jake's arms, he caught me readily. He could never be mad when I was in his arms. He relaxed a lot. "So, don't be mad Jake" Daddy said. "How could I be mad?" He asked as he gazed at me lovingly. "The Volturi will be at the wedding." My dad said plainly. Jake started shaking and put me down. I shielded his thoughts and put my hand on his cheek, replaying last night from my perspective. The shaking stopped immediately. He smiled and picked me up and kissed me. "It'll be okay. Won't it babe?" he asked me. "Of course it will honey. It always works out one way or another." I say. "When is the wedding?" I ask. "Tomorrow" my mom and dad say. "WHAT!?" I exclaim. "Jake! Did you know about this!?" I ask eagerly. I am kind of upset, I didn't get to pick anything out for my own wedding. If Jake knew about this... Oh I will be livid. He knows how important it is for me to be a part of the process. "You never asked" he said in a small voice. I hop out of his hands and run to my room. I shut the door and sit on my bed. How could he not let me know? Was it not my wedding to? That means he can't even sleep with me tonight. I can't fall asleep without him! Great. Poor Uncle Emmett or Uncle Jasper will have to. "Renesmee." my mom calls. "Mommy, I love you, but I need time to think. I am pissed beyond belief at Jacob right now." I answer. "But babe! You never asked!" Jake exclaimed. I can hear the tears in his throat. I heard my mom walk away. Jake opens my door, walks in, and closes it behind him. I turn so I am not looking at him. "Renesmee, please" he pleads. I look at him. "Baby I am so sorry. I didn't think" he says. He does seem sorry. He sits beside me and I crawl in his lap. He seems very relieved. "I know babe, but I just wanted to know. I figured that you of all people would tell me when you knew." I explain. "You're right sweetheart, I should have told you." He said. "But I know just the way to make it up to you." he says confidently. "Everyone just went hunting. It's just you and me." he says as he inches to my face. Our lips lock and he kisses me passionately. He tears my clothes off and I tear at his. After a little make up sex we get up and showered. "I thought you didn't want to today" I mocked. "I had a good reason." He said smiling down at me. I blushed. He rubbed my cheeks while the warm water was over us. "I love that." He smiled. "You know. You drive me crazy." he said while smiling lovingly. "Hows that?" I asked curiously as I climbed in his arms and wrapped my legs around his waist. "Like this" he said as he wrapped his arms around me. He looked at me with passionate eyes. "Its good to give in sometimes" I whispered in his ear. He set me down and moved as far away from me as possible. I looked down and turned away and started crying. What did I do wrong? Was it something I said? Thank God for the water. You couldn't tell I was crying. I got out with a confused Jake still in there. He followed me and wrapped a towel around me and then himself. I turned to face him. "Baby. Did I make you sad again?" he asked with self hatred. "No." I lied as I turned away just as fresh tears started falling. "I keep screwing up." he said, more to himself than me. I went and got dressed in spandex and one of his muscle shirts that I tied so it wasn't a dress. I came back and did my hair so it was natural. He was still standing there in a towel with his face twisted up in anger and sorrow. I sighed. "Baby. I know you love me, but don't want me like that. You don't have to keep giving in just because you feel bad. I understand and I won't push it." I said as I kissed his cheek. I went to leave but he caught my hand and stared at me intensely. "You honestly think I don't want you?" he asked with curious eyes. "Well. You push me off. A lot. You're always the one to break our kisses. I think I've broken one which was right after talking to the Volturi. Its the only thing that I can think of that is logical. Baby I just want you happy. I'm not mad. Our relationship is so much more than sex. It's just nice to show you how I feel for you. I understand that you don't want me like that. We can work around it." I said, surprisingly calm. He falls to the floor and breaks down. "Baby! Whats wrong" I ask, running to him. "You think I don't want you! I have failed as a fiancé. Of course I want you! I want nothing more than to throw you on the bed and have my way with you. Renesmee, I respect your father too much. I can't just disobey him because of my lack of self control! If there is a reason then I have a leg to stand on. Baby. You are so wanted and it's my job to remind you of that and I am failing miserably!" he sobs. "Baby" I coo as I wrap my arms around him. He stops his crying immediately. "Whatever. Screw your dad. I won't make you unhappy. I'd rather die" he spits out. Then he kisses me. Not just normal kiss, but a kiss so passionate and urgent that I about died. I know he is doing this to make me feel better. I now know he wants me, but wants to make my dad proud as well. He picked me up and carried me to my bed and laid me down. He was grabbing and touching everywhere on my body as if he had never held me before. I broke away. I am already taking his pack. I won't take his sanity as well. He looks at me confused then smiles and picks up where he left off. He kisses my neck and I giggle musically, involuntarilly. "Babeeeeee" I plee. "Yes beautiful" he stops, just to answer. "Let's wait until tomorrow. Please." I say with pleading eyes. "But I don't want to" he urges, sounding defeated. "But I do." I say victoriously. "Fineeee. I should go put some sweats on." he grumbles. "Hurry back" I say with a smile. "Of course. I'd miss you too much if I didn't" he says with a smile. In exactly eight point four seconds, he is back. Sweats in hand. He changes while I get a glass of water. I come back up, but don't see him. "Babe. Let me put my water down unless you want it all over you." I joke as I set it down. "What?" he says as he wraps his arms around me. I scream. "Gotcha!" he laughs. "Not funny!" I pout. He turns me around "Sowwwwwy baby." he says with a boo boo lip. "Yeah. Whatever." I say. He kisses me softly. "I can't spend the night with you tonight. It's 'bad luck' apparently." he says, dissapointed. "I know. How am I supposed to sleep!? I think I've gotten a little too used to your warm, muscular arms being wrapped around me so protectively. I feel so safe in them. Like nothing can hurt me." I reply. Letting my thoughts go outloud. He smiles and hugs me tight "Well. After tonight, they will be around you forever." He responds lovingly. "I'm planning on that" I murmur as I trace his abs. They were so nice and it calmed me in a weird way. "What are you nervous for babe?" He asked innocently. "How'd you know I was nervous?" I ask curiously. "You trace my stomach when you're nervous or deep in thought. You haven't been quiet long enough to be that deep in thought, so you must be nervous." he said casually. My mouth dropped. "You know all that just by one gesture!?" I ask surprised. "Of course. You're my better half. I know you better than I know myself." he said as he kissed my forehead. "I guess that's true. Like you kiss my forehead when you're being sentimental. And you grip me tighter when you feel threatened by anything. Oh and you like when I wrap my legs around you and when you carry me because you feel like I'm closer to you and you can protect me better." I say, shocked at my own knowledge. He looked pretty shocked too. "Unfair. You read minds." he teased. I giggled his giggle. "Will you stay with me until I fall asleep? Then go get one of my Uncles to stay the rest the night with me?" I asked. "I would love to. But I'm out by midnight." I laughed again and we layed down. He started stroking my hair. He was very good at calming me. Around 11:54 I felt him get up, kiss my forehead once, twice, three times and then go and get my Uncle Jasper to lay with me. Uncle put on a long sleeve and I layed on his arm, pretending it was Jake's. It would help me sleep. Tomorrow I was marrying my bestfriend.