destiny

how did we fall apart

This chapter starts off super lame but keep reading it gets better I promise
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Josh POV
/Me and Tyler used to be best friends/
We met in 2nd grade and became the best of friends, this continued until 7th grade when we had our first fight
Like I mean actual fight. We stopped talking for months but soon forgave each other and I practically lived at his house the rest if middle school.
But during those months we weren't friends I said some stuff to my "friend" Pete
I basically just said "I don't need him all he ever did was get me into trouble like drugs and cutting I dont need that in my life"
Which I'll admit isn't /all/ true you see he did pressure me into smoking for the first time the rest was all by choice. The cutting well that was all me.
That's beside the point
Anyway so I said that stuff and forgot about it completely. So in high school 3 fucking years later Pete told Tyler about the stuff and I thought Pete was lying but he wasn't.
I didn't remember saying it in the slightest but there is cold hard proof that I did and Tyler thought I was lying to him about not remembering it so know he hates me.
I think he hates me
You see, I haven't seen Tyler ever since the week after Pete opened his big mouth, because it is now summer
School starts in a few weeks and I have no friends.
I hope I dont have classes with Tyler.
That would make it way worse,
Everything would be worse.
I already have major anxiety, how will I face him. or anyone for that matter ?????
I dont even want to go I just want to do what I've been doing the past three months, laying around not moving, not eating, not showering, not watching TV. Just sitting in my bed thinking about Tyler
I think I forgot to mention that I have been in love with Tyler for 5 years.
Its my sophomore year of high school and I have been in love with Tyler since 6th fucking grade.
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Tyler POV
/me and josh used to be best friends/
That is until he lied to my face about talking shit on me to Pete fucking wentz. I dont really miss josh all too much.
I am quick to make friends and I have some pretty great ones right now. Friends that dont talk behind my back.
Ive been hanging out with them a whole lot and I even have a beautiful girlfriend named Jenna.
I haven't even thought about josh in the slightest until now. School starts soon and I dont want to have to even see him. Its not that I hate him that would be childish using such a strong word, I just really really really don't like him (note the plain white T's reference)
I dont like liars.
Especially ones that actually think their lies are true.
Josh literally tried to convince me that he "didn't know he said it"
Really? I am not that dumb
And now that Josh is in my thoughts he won't get out.
maybe I really do miss him