destiny

sorry

Tyler
Me and Josh are dating and i couldnt be more ecstatic.
God bless school for bringing him back to me.
I guess its destiny that we become friends and even boyfriends.
But im pretty sure josh is still hurting himself and i cant help him.
I wish i could but thats not how life works.
You're not magically cured from disorders because you get a boyfriend
And im not going to get mad at him for still being depressed and wanting to die.
I just ugh.
I really like josh.

Incoming call from Joshy....
"Hello boyfriend"
"T-tyler i-i need you nnow"
Hes crying why is he crying
Oh god
"Baby please dont hang up im on my way right now"
Hes just sobbing
Im comforting him, well trying to
When i finally arrive i cant find josh
"Where are you baby?"
"B-bathroom" he chokes out through the phone
I dart up the stairs and rush into the bathroom.
The overwhelming scent of copper fills the air and josh is crying in the tub in a pool of his own blood.
"Sorry im not goid enough for you, sorry i still hurt myself when i told you id stop. Sorry im me"
"Joshy why would you say that? Youre perfect and i didnt expect you to stop, im not mad or disappointed ok Baby? You shouldnt feel the need to be sorry for anything especially not being yourself because all i want is you"
Josh
I hate him so much hes so perfect
Hes not mad at me
He doesnt hate me
He cares
No he doesn--
The voice is cut out by tyler reaching up and running a bath.
Immediately the water turns a shade if cloudy crimson.
Tyler isnt taken aback at all. He nust takes my arm and cleans it.
Hes hesitant about my thighs but i nod assuring him it's okay.
He takes a washcloth and spreads it out on my thigh, then gently moves it in tiny circles as if i am the most breakable thing hes ever touched.
I love him so much.
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Kinda short but alot shit went down
Im pissed at spotify bc pandora has regional at best and spotify doesnt what type of shit is that?
AND I FOUND OUT THAT SLOWTOWN AND FORSET PUT ME RIGHT TO SLEEP IF IM HAVING A GOOD IRON DAY SO YAYAAYAYAYAY