destiny

what am i to you anyway

Tyler POV
Me and josh kiss a lot.
Me and josh share a bed almost every night.
Me and josh are just friends.
Josh is asleep right now and im so busy thinking that even my thoughts are getting in my way.
I wake josh up by jumping on the bed and collapsing in top of him and planting butterfly kisses across his cheeks.
"Ughhh what now"
"I don't know"
"You look sad ty, what's up"
Do you still like me
That's what i want to say.
But i cant, and i wont
"Im fine"
But im lying
"Youre so very far from fine"
(Sorry i had to)
"I dont want to make things weird so ill keep shut" being the little bitch that i am i flash a smile before getting up and exiting the room
"Ty, come here" josh rushes after me. He grabs my arm and turns me so we're face to face.
"Ty whats the matter"
"I dont want to talk about it"
"Too bad"
"Joshua William Dun i swear to god"
"That youll tell me everything? Because you're gonna"
"Do you like me ? Or are you leading me on? Because if you dont like me i need to stop wasting my time just to get hurt in the end."
"Youre real dumb tyler. Of fucking course i still like you. You cant unlove someone"
"I thought you loved cody?"
"I dated him to make me forget about you, Tyler. After you said you didnt like me i needed to at least make an effort to love someone else. Because im in love with you."
I smile and throw my arms around him in a tight hug.
"Sorry" i whisper
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Kinda a filler bc i dont know what exactly to write but ye