destiny

a game of catch up

Josh POV
I wake up with tyler curled up next to me. My head is pounding. My stomach feels like its being stabbed from the inside out and now whatever is slicing my intestines is slowly trying to climb up my throat.
I glance at the clock. 3:57 am.
Oh shit.
I run down the hall to the bathroom. Kneeling above the toilet i empty the remaining food and alcohol from my stomach.
God how much did I drink?
When did I get home?
When did Tyler get here?
I'm guessing we left early to finish Disney movies but I probs past out.
But I guess only Tyler knows. Unless he was drunk enough to forget all of the party as well.
I hope I didn't say or do anything stupid, like tell him i like him or even worse kiss him.
But judging by the sleeping Tyler in my bed I guess i didn't
Thank god.
Tyler POV
I look over and josh isn't next to me.
The clock reads 4:25 am
Maybe he got sick, he can't handle alcohol very well because he is skin and bones due to his anorexia.
And he drank god knows how much.
His livers are probably shot.
Poor baby
...Baby?
I check the bathroom and josh is asleep on the bathroom floor, puke dipping from his mouth onto the tile.
His shirt is a mess.
His cheeks are damp, must have been crying.
I run a hot bath for him, pick him up and place his sleeping body gently in the water. Clothes and all.
I clean up the floor and toilet before messing with josh.
I grab a wash cloth and clean clothes from josh's room.
I remove his shirt and toss it on the floor before wiping his mouth and face clean of vomit.
I go to the kitchen and pour him a glass of water.
Josh is still sleeping in the tub so before i wake him up I set his new clothes on the toilet seat and a glass of water with 2 ibuprofen on the counter top for him.
"Hey josh? You need to wake up so we can get you back to bed."
"Hhhmmm"
He stirs in the water.
His eyes flutter open then quickly shut from shock of the bright lights
"I brought you new clothes and some pain meds, I'm assuming you have a killer headache right now"
"You got that right" his voice is hoarse he must have been dry heaving.
I leave the bathroom and about ten minutes later I hear josh come back into the room climbing in bed next to me.
He smells of peppermint, must have just brushed his teeth. Wise choice my friend.
Josh is shaking and shivering next to me although he has like 3 blankets on.
I wrap my arms around him in sort if a protective manor, almost like a hug of some sort. We fall asleep like that perfectly content.
Josh POV
I am shook awake by tyler.
I'm in a bath.
Tyler must have woke up and did all this for me.
He leaves the room as I down the pills with water and quickly get dressed.
My breath wreaks of alcohol and barf so I brush my teeth as well.
I lay down next to tyler, and to spite the layers of blankets on me I still shiver. He must notice because a few moments later a pair of arms are around me and I am instantly warm and happy and perfect.
And that's how we fall asleep.
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I wake up again this time its 11 am and tyler is no longer beside me
I frown a little until I smell eggs and bacon. I rush down stairs to find tyler setting out two plates of food.
As soon as I sit down tyler sits across from me and says "so, do you remember what happened last night?"
"I recall nothing before 4 am"
"Oh, I see"
"Why what did I do...?"
"Nothing dont worry" he giggles to himself
I wonder what I did..
"Tyler seriously did I say something or do something"
"You did something, but nothing you need to worry about you where dunk"
"That's why I need to know"
"Guess"
"Did I puke on you beca--"
He cut me off "no, it wasn't gross wtf"
"Please tell me I didn't kiss you"
"Ehhhhhh I don't want to lie to you"
F U C K
FUCKING FUCK IM SO DUMB.
"Ty omg i I'm I I'm real sorry I probably made things awkward. Fuck sorry I get weird when I drink I didn't mean it"
But tyler my precious if only you knew I did mean it
Tyler POV
"I didn't mean it"
I figured that he didn't but somehow I wish that he did mean it.
I mean I dont like him or anything
I don't want to like him
But maybe maybe I do. maybe.

My best friend is making me question my sexuality and i dont think that's normal. But I am not a very normal person.
"Yeah, I know, I know. Dont stress about it kid, I dont care to be honest."
I try to hide the hurt. I think I fail because josh is now asking me what's wrong and all I can do is sigh.
Nothing is wrong, really everything is fine. But at the same time its all wrong.
Maybe I don't like josh.
I just got out of a relationship and I just want to feel something.
Josh kissing me made me feel something, I mean in a way it did. Maybe I just like the idea of liking him.
"You seem upset. Is it something I did last night?"
"In a way"
"What do you mean?"
"Its not because you did something. Its the reason behind it"
Josh looks puzzled at my words sorta like a lost puppy searching for someone to protect it.
I want to protect josh.
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O.O oohhhh tyler is really thinking about liking josh
Is this the start if something?? Who knows (:
I know ahha