Aftermath (An SVU Fanfiction) *EDITING*

Failed Attempt

"Can we go to the park? I'm bored.", Eli has been begging for ten minutes and Olivia is ready to cave. She's so terrified to leave the apartment though. "Please, Livvie!"

"O-okay. We can go."

"Yes!", he exclaims.

"Go get your jacket and some shoes on.", he speeds off down the hallway to do as he was asked. Olivia takes a deep breath, trying to calm herself before going through with this.

"Ready!", Eli runs to her. "Can we go now?"

"Yeah, yeah, lets go, buddy!", she takes his hand and heads out the door, locking it behind her.

On the way there, they talked about everything, but it was mainly Eli. Who knew third graders were so smart? He informed her about things she had no clue even existed.

"Livvie, can I stay with you and daddy?"

"What do you mean, honey?", she asks as they turn a corner.

"Like, can I stay with you and daddy for forever and ever?", Olivia stops in her tracks and bends down to his level.

"Until your mommy comes to get you.", a sad look takes over his face. Olivia places her hand on his cheek. "What's wrong, Eli?"

"I don't wanna stay with mommy anymore.", he starts crying, so she naturally hugs him and plays with his hair.

"Why not?"

"Mommy and her boyfriend do bad stuff. She says I'm not supposed to tell, but she got hurt."

"Hurt how? What are they doing?", she's now very concerned.

"I don't know what its called, but she poked her arm and then it bleeded and then she went to sleep. Then Shane came over and she woked up."

"Is he describing what I think he's describing?", she thinks. "Honey, how many times did she poke herself?"

"She says that I have to go to my room, but I had to potty and so-", her phone starts ringing. It's Elliot, thank god.

"El?"

"Baby, something happened.", her heart starts racing. "Kathy died.", she looks down at the child who's holding her leg and wonders what's going to happen to him.

•••••••

It's been three months since Kathy's car crash. She was high on meth and crashed into another vehicle. Eli has been living with them ever since, obviously. They've all adjusted well, considering. Olivia even returned to work. Although it was rough the first couple of weeks, she pushed through.

Olivia and Elliot had gotten Eli to bed and were now looking over their most recent case while laying in bed. Olivia is overly attached to this case, just as she had been with every case before this one. This one in particular sent her over the edge. A college student was raped at a frat party and the guy who they all know did it cut her skin twenty seven times.

"This piece of shit is gonna walk if we can't get anymore evidence! We don't have anymore to give, Casey says-"

"Baby, calm down, we'll catch him, okay?", they both put their manila folders on the bedside table. Elliot pulls her to his side and kisses her. "Don't get yourself all worked up."

Olivia sits up and kisses him again, but this time with more passion. Somewhere in the mix, she ended up on top of Elliot. This is pretty much as far as they've been able to get so far. She begins grinding her hips against his in a slow motion.

"Liv..hey, slow down.", she stops in her tracks and looks at him with confusion. "Are you sure?"

"Mhm.", she nods her head and bites her lip, pulling her shirt over her head. Elliot holds her by her waist.

"Babe, we don't have to if you aren't ready."

"I am ready.", she looks at him with pleading eyes.

"You're sure?"

"Yes.", she answers with a kiss. "Please.", he gently flips them over, laying her on her back. He's more than careful to not rush things, to let her guide this whole thing. Elliot needs her to be in control of this. Olivia has to feel comfortable, safe, loved.

Their clothes had been discarded piece by piece between kisses. For the first time since her assault, they're naked..together..sexually. Elliot runs his fingertips over her skin, causing little bumps to appear below them. He can tell Olivia is nervous, but she really wants this. She doesn't want be afraid of sex because of Lewis.

"I'm not gonna break, El.", she whispers. She kisses him as her fingers run through his short hair.

"You gotta tell me what to..Liv, I don't want to hurt you."

"Just..kiss me..everywhere."

"If it gets too much, just say when.", she nods her head.

Elliot trails kisses down the column of her neck and to her chest. He was hesitant, but ended up flicking his tongue over her nipple and sucking gently and then does the same to her other one. He continues his kissing down her stomach to her thighs. His lips press into her inner thighs softly before he makes contact with her mound. She flinches, but instantly assures him that she's okay.

He kisses her. The heat from his lips gave a warm touch to her that she loves. She gasps at the sudden contact. Olivia really does like this, she wants this. She doesn't want the flashback though.

Lewis licks her sweet spot greedily, grunting in the midst of doing so. He can't get enough of her scent, her taste. His tongue slips between her folds-

"El..", he stops what he's doing, in fear that he may have hurt her. "..please..", tears start forming in her eyes. "..no, no, no, no, no!", she cries. Elliot gets up, puts his boxer shorts back on, and quickly returns to her with her robe in hand. He wraps it around her and pulls her into his side. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry! I really wanted to, but-"

"Shh..hey, it's okay. You're not ready, it'll be alright.", her arms entangle around him for comfort.

"I tried, I wanted to do this, but he-I can't. Please don't be mad at me!"

"Baby, I could never be mad about this, okay? Why don't you get some rest? Just lay down and get some sleep."

"Okay.", she whispers into his chest, feeling defeated.

•••••••

Olivia wakes Elliot with a kiss like she has been doing for the past few weeks. He returns the favor and gets up, following her to the kitchen.

"You hungry? I was thinking, I could make breakfast before you leave and I could take Eli up to the school."

"Liv, about last night-"

"I'm fine. Promise.", she half-smiles. Elliot has learned to not push her at certain times. This is one of those times.

"No. I'll go get him up. I'm sure he'll love Livvie's eggs and bacon.", he pecks her forehead before going to get Eli up for the day.

A/N

Guyyyyys. How was everyone's Halloween? And did you love M's costume as much as I me?! Joy definitely suites her!😊