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Things Are a Changin'

My senior year has taken a dramatic turn. Positively and slightly negatively.
It was no surprise that i would be stressing this school year, because i need to currently keep my salutatorian rank locked in place. Every class needs to be 96 average or above, which is superrrr difficult.
On top of all of this, i'm stressing because my brother is moving out of the house and i still haven't been able to accept that. He's renting an apartment with his girlfriend (who's been living with us since August), and i'm just lost on what to say. Yeah, i'm happy for him, but that means less entertainment at my house and more complaints from my mother.

On the bright side, I have my first boyfriend! Woohoo! He's super cute, goofy as hell, weird, has a good taste in music, and makes me feel special. He pretty much consumes my every thought in the day, and i've been permanently blushing since we kissed. This is a brand new thing for both of us, so we get through the awkwardness together.
My family absolutely adores him, and when i described how he makes me feel- my dad started to cry. My father rarely cries, but knowing that he likes my boyfriend so much means the world to me. I've never been happier, and my boyfriend understands my habits and what I like.
I would even use the word love, but it's too soon. I find myself wanting to be with him every second. He's so special.
I was fully okay with going to college single (and a virgin with everything). But now i'm just being amazed by how great he is with every day that passes. 💛

As an update (01/05/16), I am in love. We sing in the car together, make fun of each other, laugh together- he's just so great. I have had some speed bumps, but nothing major enough to bring to his attention in a forceful manner. Here they are:

-I think he's mainly just trying to be comfortable, but he is overcompensating with his humor. He acts a little bit weirder than normal around my father, step mom, and brother. I think he really wants to fit into the family, but it becomes kind of embarrassing when he makes certain comments or does certain things. For example: he jokingly gives my brother compliments, gives bear hugs to my step mom, and just adds awkwardness sometimes.

-When I text him with a moderately lengthy paragraph, he'll either completely ignore my question/concern and send me a funny picture... or he'll only respond to part of it... or he'll make a completely irrelevant comment/update on his day. I'll then just be like "So, about what I said earlier..." or I have to ask him if he even got my messages because he'll act like they don't need to be answered immediately. Like, babe, just please respond as soon as possible and share your thoughts.