love, ella [l.h]

july 20, 2013

dear luke,

so now i'm settled in my apartment. i have everything unpacked now. the apartment is okay size-wise. there's one bedroom, 2 bathrooms, a kitchen, living room, and a there's a desk in my room. i like it, it's enough room for me.

i wonder what it would be like if you were still here. we would share this apartment, we'd go have some of the same classes, we'd just be together. i miss you all the time. you're mainly the only thing my thoughts.

it still hurts now, it really does. it's been 6 months living without you. you're not here anymore, and i need to accept that. i know it's hard but i know i can. i'm gonna get better, and i'm gonna move on. not today, but i know i will. soon.

so i start college in a little over a month, and it's really really scaring me. of course i'm ecstatic, but it's a pretty big school, with a lot of kids, and i don't know who to talk to. i don't know anybody. i'll be lonely and i hate the thought of that. now, after seeing so many people around the campus and around the city, i miss hanging out with people. i want a friend.

don't worry about me though, and i shouldn't either. i know i'll be okay, i can do this. it's only college.

wow that sounded pathetic haha "it's ONLY college"

okay well i'm gonna go to sleep, i'm exhausted, and my hand hurts. goodnight lucas, and i hope you're doing good, wherever you are. i love and miss you.

love, ella
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hey guys, i'll update again tomorrow💖
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-Madison