love, ella [l.h]

january 16, 2013

dear luke,

it's been 2 days since you left, and i don't know what to do with myself anymore. i'm so empty, i have no emotion, no happiness whatsoever. the last time i smiled or felt happy, and actually meant it, was when i spent that last night with you. i'm still in shock. i can't believe you're actually gone, and you're not coming back. you're actually gone. why did you do it? you already told me but i'm still so confused. i knew you had some times in the past when you were sad, but i didn't know how serious it was. why couldn't you of just talked to me? i could've been there for you.

wasn't i enough? when you were thinking of reasons to live, why wasn't i one of them? wasn't i enough for you? i'm so so sorry that i wasn't a good enough reason for you to stay.

i'm sorry luke. i miss you so much, please come back.

love, ella