love, ella [l.h]

april 14 2013

dear luke,

I KNOW I SAID THAT I WOULD WRITE AT THE END OF THE MONTH BUT I CAN'T HANDLE THIS ANYMORE.

I CAN'T KEEP GOING TO SCHOOL AND PASS BY YOUR LOCKER WHEN THERE IS SOMEONE ELSE USING IT. WHY CAN'T YOU BE HERE? I'M NOT USING LOWERCASE LETTERS BECAUSE I'M ANGRY AND I NEED YOU TO KNOW THAT I'M ANGRY.

YOU LEFT ME LUKE. YOU PROMISED YOU WOULDN'T BUT YOU DID. YOU SAID YOU'D ALWAYS BE THERE FOR ME, BUT GUESS WHAT? YOU'RE NOT HERE. MY LIFE IS FALLING APART AN THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT.

YOU WERE THE ONLY THING THAT MADE ME HAPPY LUKE. THE ONLY THING AND NOW YOU JUST TAKE IT AWAY? YOU TOOK YOURSELF AWAY?

I'M SO MAD AT YOU BUT I COULD NEVER HATE YOU. I DID AT THE BEGINNING BUT I CAN'T ANYMORE. I DON'T KNOW HOW THAT WORKS BUT LUKE I MISS YOU SO DAMN MUCH AND YOU'RE NEVER COMING BACK.

EVER.

-ella