Say The Words (Louis Tomlinson Fan Fic)

Chapter 3

This chapter is dedicated to @wanderings

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Sunday, August 4th, 2013

*Addie's POV*

"B-b-b-baby c'mon over

I don't care if people find out (dada - dadada - da - da - da - da)

They say that we're no good together

And it's never gonna work out (dada - dadada - da - da - da - da)"

I groan as I roll over to shut off my alarm. I really need to change that now. It's awkward enough that I even have a stupid boy band song as my alarm. It's a little immature, for me at least. I'm still a little shocked that I met Louis last night. That's pretty cool I guess. Weird, but cool. I get up from my bed and walk to the bathroom to shower and get ready for work.

The water stings my arm and I hiss as I jerk my arm back. I examine the area with the most pain and start to run my fingers over the all-too-familiar part of my wrist. There are 4 crimson lines surrounded by pink skin from the showers' hot water.

I've struggled with self harming for a good 4 years now. I don't really talk about it and it's never got too extreme. It's not something I do every day either. I go through seasons where I'm really happy and I'm doing well, then I go through seasons where I have to do it a few times a day. It's not that I enjoy it. I want to stop, but I'm just comfortable in this pit of lukewarm numbness. Right now I think I'm coming out of a bad season. A few months ago, I had no motivation whatsoever. I thought maybe that I wasn't meant to be happy and now, that's all I want: is to be happy.

I step into the shower again and continue my daily routine and head off to work, making sure to skip my breakfast.

*Louis POV*

I wake up to the sound of Liam up around in the flat. Obviously, he didn't get drunk, but man Harry was wasted. I chuckle at the thought of his nonsense and turn over to my phone to check the time. It's 10:37 in the morning. I flip the covers off me and start walking to the living area.

"Mornin'." I say to Liam. He mumbles his good morning to me. "Everyone else still asleep?" I ask.

"Yep. Say, what was all the noise about last night? Was someone yelling for a doctor?" Liam asks.

I laugh and say, "That noise was Harry. Yes, he was yelling for the doctor because of my cleverness. I got him to finally get some rest since you guys couldn't get him to!" I smile proudly at my intelligence.

"Mmm." Liam hums in response as he drinks his coffee. Coffee sounds nice.

"Well I'm going to grab coffee at Starbucks lads, shall I bring any back for Niall, Harry, and Zayn?"

 "Yeah I'm sure they would want their usuals. I'll make sure they're up when you're back. They should be getting up soon anyway, we have another gig tonight and sound check is at 4."

"Okay." I say as I run to my bathroom and take a quick shower and throw on a tank and some jeans. I decide that I'm too lazy to mess with my hair so I put a beanie on too. I look at the time and it's 11:04. I grab my card and phone then walk out of the apartment. I reach the end of the hall where the lift is and I decide to take the stairs. Why take the lift when I'm only on the 3rd floor?

Walking off the last flight of stairs, I wave to the man at the front desk as he greets me. Proceeding to the main doors, I see some fans outside waiting for any of us lads to come outside.

"LOUIS!!"

"Oh my gosh! It's Louis! Louis, can I have a picture?"

"Can you sign my shirt!?"