Say The Words (Louis Tomlinson Fan Fic)

Chapter 16

If you read anything, READ THIS PARAGRAPH RIGHT HERE! If you are feeling triggered or are easily triggered, don't read this right now. Don't read this chapter, don't vote for it. Wait until you are stable. I don't know how triggering it is to everyone else, it's different to me because I wrote it. Be smart.

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*Louis POV*

Monday, August 19th, 2013

I just left Addie's apartment and I'm trying my best not to cry. "Did you do it?" My bodyguard asks on the way to our car to take me to the airport.

"Yes." I say simply and we leave in silence because we both are tired and have a plane to catch.

*Addie's POV*

Wednesday, August 21st, 2013

Jen is at work late today. We leave for the UK in about 2 weeks. I know it's unusually fast, but it's not like we needed to sell the apartment. It's just going to stay open until someone buys it from the landlord. Jen also wanted to start her job as soon as she could. Mason is at an Mumford and Sons concert with some friends tonight. Mason has really taken the hipster road. He's a lot like Harry, with whom he hung out with a lot when the guys were here.

Bradley and I are stuck at home tonight. He was debating on having his friend Luke over. Luke is extremely attractive, sweet, caring, and hilarious. He's the total package, except he has a girlfriend and it sucks. But I shouldn't complain, I love Louis. He's more than I could ever ask for.

"Bradley, can I have the remote?" I ask Bradley while I shut my Mac. He gives me the remote and goes back to his computer and I turn the television on to E! News. I love Fashion Police and that's why I ever watch E! Network, but the news show is pretty good too. Coincidentally, they're talking about One Direction. It's almost funny how much I hear about them now. It's just ironic. But, jokes get old, right? There's a dead end to every joke.

"... Is One Direction's, Louis Tomlinson, single and ready to mingle? Is he cheating on rumored American girlfriend, Addie Rhodes? Let's take a look!" The E! News host, Giuliana Depandi, says and my jaw drops as I see pictures of Louis at a bar grinding with another girl.

"Addie," Bradley mumbles out in a deep voice. I feel him slowly reaching for the remote and I get up to stand in front of the tv. By the time I get there, they have another picture showing. "Addie, it's not worth watching! It's rumors. Don't-" Bradley cuts off.

The picture shows Louis holding another girl and kissing her and her arms are wrapped very tightly around his neck. What the hell? I feel the remote being taken from my hand and the screen goes black. I cannot move. I do not feel my legs. I can't move my arms. I feel like I can't even breathe. I can't do anything to revive my paralyzed body.

"Addie," Bradley touches my shoulder. I feel it. Oh, my feeling and nerves are back. I collapse on the ground and sit on my knees, head in my hands, and start sobbing. "Oh shit, Addie. I'm so sorry. He's a real son of a bitch." Bradley gets on the floor and wraps his arms around me. I try to push him away, but he tells me to stop, which only makes me cry more. I start uncontrollably sobbing and screaming. I'm simultaneously screaming and crying. I didn't know that was possible.

There's a few other things I didn't know were possible. I didn't know it was possible to love someone so much. As much as I wanted to die everyday, I didn't know it was possible to love someone enough that I would easily die for. I literally feel like my heart has been stabbed and ripped out of my chest. I can feel the rugged, yet sharp dagger piercing my already-broken heart. I also feel as if there are bricks being placed on my chest and I cannot breathe anymore. I have lost my will to live. I lost-