Don't Judge: A Teen Pregnancy

Part 14

Jay and  I head to school, we are close to done. I honestly don't know what I would do if we had school for much longer. My teachers told me I could get credits and finish early. Hopefully, I will graduate about  month before the baby is due. Luckily, I am still aloud to go to prom and graduation and the last month of school. Basically, I will be getting a lot of stuff done now so I can take two months off of school when she is due. I have been staying after school until Jay gets out of practice, so I can get shit done. Today, I am staying after for science. Finally, I finish all of the assignments, so I can go watch the last few minutes of practice.

Cashing into each other, the boys scare me. The last thing I need is for Jay to get hurt. The small heels on my shoes sink into the grass, but I don't mind. I sit on the cold bleachers. During the water break, Jay come over to the bleachers with me. "Hey babe," he says sitting on the bleachers.

"Hey, I brought you extra water," I reply.

"Why don't you go sit in the car? It is cold outside," he asks.

"No baby. This is the last practice before the last game," I explain.

"Come on," he says handing me the keys, "It is cold."

I walk to the car, but I am kind of pissed that Jay lied to me. As I walk back to the car, I think about what to say to him. Part of me tells me to be really pissed, but the other part tells me to calm down. Jay jumps into the car a few minutes later. "What the hell was that?" I ask.

"What?" he say, but he is lying.

"That's not why you didn't want me there. I know you. You were so lying," I yell.

"To be honest... I don't want you to be there because the other cause think you are hot."

"Oh... Babe you should have told me," I laugh.

As the weeks end, I start to feel sick, so I go to the doctors. She says that I just have a cold, but she wants to do an ultrasound just incase. Her face shocks me. She seems worried.

"What's wrong," I ask.

"I am so sorry. We did not see this last time..."

"What is it?" I cry.

"A defect."

"Spit it out!" I choke.

"Out of every eight million babies born eight have this defect. It is extremely rare. Ninety percent of them do not make it past the first the three days if they even are born alive.  I think-"

"Stop," I plead. "I had a project on this one time. She has ectopia cordis. Doesn't she?"

"Yes, part of her heart is outside of her body. I think the best thing to do is terminate the pregnancy. You have three days to decide since you are almost twenty three weeks, the legal abortion cut off."

"I need some time," I say balling. All I wanted was for her to be healthy. Now she is... dying. I walk into the waiting room where Elle waits. I immediately pull myself together as I don't want her to see me like this. I want Jay to be the first person besides me to know. She drives me home, but I tell her everything is fine. As soon as I enter Jay's room, I drop my purse and break down. It feels as though someone stabbing me in the chest, but the second I calm down, they plunge it in again.

"What is wrong," he begs. "She is fine. Everything is fine."

Since I can no longer listen to his pleas, I muster up enough strength to answer, " I will never see her. She is dying. I don't know what to do. I love her so much, so do I end it? Do I put her out of her misery? Do I give her the smallest chance to fight? What do I do?"

"What is wrong?" he asks. "Are you sure you are not overreacting? They told us everything was fine last time."

"Yes, she only has a ten percent chance of living past her first three days?"

"Why?"

"Part of her heart is outside of her body," I explain.

"So do you want to terminate?"

"I do not know what is the right thing to do?"

"I do not want to influence your decision, so I am going to leave you alone," he sighs walking out of his room. 

I put my hands on my stomach and cry...