NOVEMBER GOT ME YOU

Chapter 23

DINA'S P.O.V

"Steve...?"

He opened his eyes immediately the second he heard my voice. I chuckled. Still the same Steve I left back in Jakarta airport couple weeks ago. Too many questions in my head but all I wanted was to hug and thank him for coming.

"Hey you. Finally."

"Sorry..." I smiled. "Is it my birthday yet that you're coming?"

"Slay. I wish I could slap you a little bit but you already have enough bone fractures, so..."

"Hahaha." I laughed in deep pain but I pushed it away. "Happy to see you."

"I'm even happier to see you alive." Steve grabbed my hand. "Serious question. How are you?"

"Still have dreams from that day... I heard sirene in my sleep. It was very loud. And chaos. Everybody screamed..."

"Post accident trauma."

"I already hate how it sounds." I scanned the room. "Where is Carol?"

"She's on her way back to the lab. Daily report. But she'll be here soon."

I smiled looking the way Steve spell her name. There was a little blush. Damn, this Caucasian guy couldn't hide his rosy cheeks no matter how hard he tried. Something about Carol made him nervous.

"Isn't she cute?" I moved my feet slowly to check if I have owned my body back.

"Stop." Steve laughed louder than he should. "Stop it. Not now."

"It's okay. She's amazing. Carol is a girl that I barely talked to, but I already consider her as a best friend. She just...like what you love in a girl, she has it."

"Dina Filan you may stop now." Steve blushed twice worse. "Hey, can I ask you something?"

"Sure."

"How is it with Connor? Did I miss something?"

"Connor."

I mumbled. It sounded familiar in my mouth. But then I couldn't stop calling her name in my heart. It's hard to answer. I had no clue as to what we exactly were right now.

"He's worried." Steve continued.

"And then what?" I stared off to the distance.

"If he's here, would you say hi and be kind to him?"

"If only he's here, I wouldn't promise anything." I glanced at Steve. "But he may come in."

"Okay."

Well I wasn't surprised. Steve and I haven't even been friends for a year yet but we're that close to know if any of us ever hid something. I knew where Steve was getting at. I knew he's outside.

A silhouette stood by the door. It was still too blurry for me to recognize and I couldn't move my upper body to sit. But that's the same voice tone which said to me 'I love you' three weeks ago.

"You're alive." He whispered

"And so are you." I smiled, knew my words were pretty confronting. "How did you end up here?"

"Steve."

"Cool."

"I still love you." He said fast

"That's cool too."

"I mean it Dina I'm sorry. I swear it's not how you think it is. It's just me being confused about myself and my own choice. Like a divided path."

"It's okay. It happens." I turned my face away. "Are the boys here?"

"No they're home. We just finished radio touring."

I let the silence take over. It's just awkward. I didn't know which was more painful, my broken bones or my broken heart.

"Babe... Can I get a second chance?" He kneeled by my side.

"Now you think you're ready?"

"I almost died too in sadness when I figured out you're having plane crash. I don't want to waste my time. Three weeks was enough for me to process." He kissed top of my hand. "I want to have you back."

"Connor... Because once I love, I love too much."

"Let me have the honor to love and loved by you, then. I didn't fly this far only to see you walk away from me."

I gave in. Couldn't live without him either, I guess. It's been the toughest weeks since he's gone, since our last kiss. All I wanted was his true love that would never leave anymore.

"Help me to walk again, would you?" I responded.

"Will be by your side forever, hun. This time I swear with all my heart, no doubt and regret. I will take you home."

Connor landed a kiss on my forehead then approached my lips. It felt weird to be kissed again. But he did it softly. Realizing I've been in pain for too long, it was such a great healer. Little voice in my head said I shouldn't trust him again, but I'd rather go with my guts now.

Because it said yes.