When I woke up I smiled at him softly. "I love you. More than life itself I love you." I whispered when his eyes fluttered open softly. He smiled. "I love you too Frankie."
I looked down and sighed. "I've done a lot wrong, you know that."
"It's fine Frankie." He frowned.
"I left the country. I-I moved to Paris."
"Why Frankie? Why did you want to leave me?" He sniffles softly. "Am I that terrible?"
"No baby, I left, because I was constantly trying to kill you. It was a thought that consumed me, I just wanted to kill you. That's all I could think of. I was starting to hate you."
"Why Frankie?"
"Because hating you was easier than hating myself. It was easier than the truth."
"Why would you leave me?!? I needed you Frankie. I missed you and I didn't even know where you were. You don't ever think about my feelings." He was sobbing. He's right, I've never thought about how this would make him feel.
"Baby..."
"Don't." He warns. "Just tell me what happened. Did you get someone else pregnant in Paris?"
"No I-"
"Then what?!? What happened there?" He looks at me angrily and screams at me.
"Gerard I-"
"Shut up! And tell me!" It's not an easy task, to shut up and tell someone something. I was trying to tell him, but he kept yelling at me.
"I told my friend to kill you." I whispered. "You kept calling me-"
"Don't give me your lies, just tell me what happened. Why did you come back?" I could see it, he hoped I'd say, "Because I missed you." But I didn't.
"Because I got kicked out." He chuckled, but it wasn't his soft laugh that he used. It was an angry laugh. It was a mad laugh. Yes, I mean mad as in crazy.
"Of course you did! What haven't you done? Killed a man?!? Don't answer that you bastard." He whispered. The man in front on me wasn't mine. He was sweet and loving, but this man was mean and hurtful. But he made me realize that everything I've done is wrong.
"How did you get kicked out of the country?!?" He screams. "Because I wasn't a very good citizen and I was threatening people."
"You're a sick person Frank Iero." He said coldly spitting his words at me. His eyes held a look I've never seen. I was scared. I wasn't going to say or doing anything unless he told me.
"What happened when you got back? When you FIRST got back?"
"I cut myself."
"Why?" He asked dismissively. He was done talking about this but he wanted to get it over with, I could tell.
"Because I wanted to hurt you-"
"So instead you hurt yourself. You did hurt me! More than you can ever imagine! You left me! You're a bastard!!" He yelled. "A dick!" He started punching my chest and I let him. He needed this. He punched me and started sobbing intensely. He didn't want me around but I held him in my arms while he sobbed and he let me.
"Go." He whispered when he calmed down. I scrambled out of the room.
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1.I hate when you make spaghetti
2.I actually don't go to the gym
3.I love to smoke pot.
4.My mom isn't my mom.
5.Rover's not our dog.
6.We first started dating as a dare
7. I stole your ring
8. I almost died
9.Every Thursday night I go to clown college
10.I dream of being in a band
11.I stole two guitars from the music store
12.I don't work.
13.I steal our money
14.I pretend to be homeless
15.I am bipolar
16. I get in a lot of fights
17. I went to jail for two weeks
18.I hitch-hiked to Michigan
19. I cheated on you
20. I have a daughter
21. I see her twice a week
22.I tried to kill myself
23. I burned down our old house
24.I prostitutued once
25. We're not actually married.
26. I bought a car for 800,000 dollars and sold it for 300.
27. I used to slip weight loss medicine into your food.
28. There was a time I hated you.
29. I moved out of the country.
30. I asked my friend to kill you
31. I was kicked out of Paris.
32. I cut myself so I wouldn't hurt you.
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50 Things I've kept a secret- Frerard
FanfictionFrank had a life changing experience and he can't handle the way he loves anymore. The down side he has to admit everything he's done wrong to Gerard.
