Every time he weighs himself I feel guilty. For three years I slipped weight loss pills into his food. I was trying to kill him. I couldn't stand the guilt anymore and I was trying to end his life, since I had failed at ending my own. How can I tell him that? How can I tell him I wanted to kill him? I sit on the toilet waiting for weight to be read. "Nothing's changed." He tries to hide his excitement. He knew that he weight was getting dangerously low. "Gerard that's great."
I pat my lap and he straddles my waist and lays his head on my shoulder I sigh and hold him tightly against me.
"Are you okay Frankie? Am I getting fat?" He mumbles the last part. "No baby. It's just I'm a terrible person." He nods jokingly and I look down.
"Hey Frankie what's wrong?" He whispers.
"Gerard I've been doing something horrible."
He waits for me to continue. "Okay so you know how you lost a lot of weight?" He nods. "It's my fault." He looks confused. He always looks confused, but this time he looks hurt.
"How?" He whispers.
"Gerard I slipped weight loss medicine into your food."
"Because I'm too fat." He stands up. "I'm sorry Frankie." Wait what? He's sorry?
"No Ger-"
"I didn't mean to get this big."
"No listen-"
"I just really like food."
"GERARD!" He stops and looks at me. "I wanted to kill you."
"Oh.." He nods. "So I'm not fat." He doesn't even care that I tried to kill him!
"No. But did you hear me."
"Yeah whatever. You felt guilty... Blah..... Blah.....blah. You can't change the past, but I'm not fat, which means I can gain weight. I'm only 110 pounds Frankie. I need to gain weight." I nod.
"Okay then I'll help you."
He smiles. "Thank you."
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1.I hate when you make spaghetti
2.I actually don't go to the gym
3.I love to smoke pot.
4.My mom isn't my mom.
5.Rover's not our dog.
6.We first started dating as a dare
7. I stole your ring
8. I almost died
9.Every Thursday night I go to clown college
10.I dream of being in a band
11.I stole two guitars from the music store
12.I don't work.
13.I steal our money
14.I pretend to be homeless
15.I am bipolar
16. I get in a lot of fights
17. I went to jail for two weeks
18.I hitch-hiked to Michigan
19. I cheated on you
20. I have a daughter
21. I see her twice a week
22.I tried to kill myself
23. I burned down our old house
24.I prostitutued once
25. We're not actually married.
26. I bought a car for 800,000 dollars and sold it for 300.
27. I used to slip weight loss medicine into your food.
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50 Things I've kept a secret- Frerard
FanficFrank had a life changing experience and he can't handle the way he loves anymore. The down side he has to admit everything he's done wrong to Gerard.
