fITE ME
I've actually found my bag of proudness and confidence to write this
Also, I'm listening to Fall Out Boy while writing this, the song is currently, Coffee's For Closers
and ARGHHH FOLIE A DEUX IS SUCH ASDFGHJKKLLLLL--
ahem
NOTES: May be a little depressing /)-(\(<- this is me covering my eyes..) but of course, ends with Brallon
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"Say your prayers, say your prayers, say your prayers~" I sang the last words to Hallelujah and the crowd started going wild, "Thank you so much for coming to our performance, we love you and goodbye, see you guys soon!" I screamed earning more fangirl scream, I laughed at how much their screaming from the top of their lungs just because of four dudes performing for them, we all went to the backstage, did I mention Fall Out Boy was with us?, No?, well..Fall Out Boy is with us.
"The performance was amazing guys!" Patrick said smiling "Oh please, we did better" Pete said putting an arm around Patrick, Dallon smirked "Yeah, Patrick's voice was angelic" "Dallon, Patrick's boyfriend is right there" I said pointing at Pete "Yeah, he deserves the jealous feeling" Pete rolled his eyes "You guys did great.." his facial expression changed when Patrick elbowed him "I mean..you guys were amazing out there!, Brendon doing flips, hitting the high noted that was not necessary..yeah.." I put a hand over my, fake flattered "Aww thank you" "Hey your mine!" Dallon said jokingly, small part of my brain just said 'Sometimes I wish we weren't joking'
We all went back to the bus to get some sleep, I understood because well, we were performing our hearts out for our fans so it's really necessary to just leave your friend alone and go to sleep, well..atleast I thought I was alone. I was scrolling through twitter until I could hear noises, I looked up from my phone "Dallon?" I closed my phone setting it down beside me before standing up and walking over to where the noises were coming from, as I got closer, I realized it WAS Dallon.
He was sleeping and..sweating?, I walked closer and sat down beside him, carefully shaking him "Dallon?.." I said unsure of what to say, his face made it obvious he was having a nightmare, he's been less active the past days and we've noticed, we were just too scared to ask because it might just you know..shoot him, I continued to shake him, trying to wake him up "Dallon, wake up!" I said speeding up, his facial expressions were starting to become 'I'm scared' face, now this is just worrying.
It came to the point wherein I was quietly screaming (if that was even possible) while quietly shouting his name (again, is this even possible), his eyes shot open quickly going into the sitting position, "Dallon buddy, you okay?, what happened?" he just shook his head "Just a nightmare.." "Don't speak like it's nothing Dallon, what's going on?" he stayed quiet and so did I.
Silence quickly visited until he (finally) spoke "I've just..I've been having negative thoughts recently.." now that just makes me sad, seeing Dallon like this isn't even normal, I don't like it "You can tell your problems to me..trust me" he looked at me still not sure, I pulled him closer to me, hugging him tight "Come on, trust me, it's me!, Brendon!" I smiled a little trying to bring up the mood, he did a small smile and started to talk.
"I just..Don't you just get tired?" "Tired of what?.." I asked curiously, he turned away, avoiding eye contact "Tired of believing someone would love you back.." after he said that, my heart broke into millions of pieces, how could he say that?, who's he crushing on and why is he thinking they'll reject him?, oh curiosity hurts.
"Not only that..tired of looking back and regretting your decisions?..don't you..don't you get tired of everything?" I slowly reached for his hand still not getting any of his attention, but when our hands met, his attention was (quickly) on me, he looked at our hands and back at me, repeating the steps, I chuckled at his actions.
"Dallon, listen, we all get tired of such things in life, believe it or not, I get tired too, but sometimes we just gotta look over the regrets, negativity and everything else that has to do with sadness and look at the opposite of all those things, you have to help yourself if you ever wanna get pass this, I know people always get these sentences but trust me, it's true, and whoever this person is, is a complete idiot for making you feel this way" I smiled saying each word proudly, he slowly looked down again, I forgot..our hands were touching.
I quickly let go of his hand blushing a bit "I..er..sorry..I just thought It'd be good to hold your hand for..you know.." he cut me off with a small laugh, he hugged me tight "It's okay..I was actually fine with you..holding my hand" he said not letting go of me, silence filled the room and were still not letting go of eachother, he slowly pulled away a little bit "..Brendon, can you promise me something?" "Anything" he stayed quiet for a while, what could this sentence be that I have to promise about?
"Promise me.." he said letting go of me "..that you won't get mad.." he moved back a little "..or disgusted" I smiled "I will never get mad or even disgusted over you" he smiled and took deep breaths, "I..." he started off "really.." I jokingly started to fall asleep(laughing a bit), he took one of his pillows and hit me with it "Stop being rude!" he said corssing his arms like a little kid.
I laughed "Continue.." he smiled happily but it faded a little bit when he continued "..I really..do..love.." the last word was a mumble "I'm sorry, but can you repeat the last one?" he whispered "Again, please?" he sighed and looked straight into my eyes "..you" I stayed quiet and he didn't look away, I guess I just called myself a complete idiot awhile ago huh?, I didnmt realize his affection before..I was the idiot.
I started to smile "Y-your not mad?" I moved closer to him hugging him "Of course not..I actually love you too.." "Are you sure it's love? and not like?" I laughed a bit "To me, there's no difference" he giggled, I pulled away a little and our eyes met (again) our smiles slowly faded away and we were slowly leaning in, I stopped and so did Dallon "I'm sorry I was blind" "It's okay, Brendon" I smirked and quickly leaned in, closing the gap between us.
And after that day (night) Dallon was himself again. Only taken.
