Lost in love - HunHan

Chapter O2

Luhan P.O.V.

Nothing went wrong during the whole concert. The overwhelming feeling that the fans gave us, I can still feel it although the concert is over. I can still hear all the fans scream and singing along to our songs. I must be honest, it did give me a headache, and I was happy the concert was finished. Other members had plenty of energy left, like Chanyeol, Baekhyun, Chen and Sehun. You can see they're tired because of the looks on their faces and the sweat running down their necks, but they are still jumping around, singing and running. As they ran by Sehun looked at me with joyful eyes. I gave him a faint smile and walked back to our dressingroom. Someone gave me a towel which I took to wipe of all the sweat running down my face. So, that feels better. Once I reached the dressingroom with Suho were Chanyeol and Baekhyun sitting together on the sofa. Nothing new really. It was amazing that they found each other, really. I just wished they wouldn't show it all in my face and that they could be a bit more quiet sometimes. Maybe I was just jealous of them, maybe I just needed a lover. I removed my mic and looked at it while biting my lip. The feeling wasn't the same, not like before. Singing was amazing, but everything that came with it, I hated it and sometimes wished I wasn't famous at all. That I wasn't scouted and just stayed at the university. It felt amazing when fans scream your name, but sometimes it was just to much. I have this feeling more often lately, as if the feelings are piling up. Every time the thought hits me, I feel guilty toward the other 11 members in the room. I also wonder if they have the same thoughts as I have, but when I see them after the concert I know they don't. They look tired, but the sparkle in their eyes tells me they love it and wouldn't do something else. I lost that sparkle in my eyes.

'Luhan-Hyung?' a hand before my eyes made me look up, right into two brown eyes. 'What?' it was blunter than I meant and murmured a sorry. Sehun just smiled at me. 'We are going back to the hotel. The rest already left.' Sehun gave me my back before walking out the door. I sighted, so far in my own mind, I didn't even notice the loud room becoming empty as they al walked out. I really should pay more attention next time. I hoist myself from the sofa and walking toward the door, where the maknae was still waiting for me.

We walked through the door to the elevator at the end of the hall. We would stay here for another night, since we had a concert in the same venue tomorrow. After that we would go back to Seoul if I'm correct. The moment I felt the could air on my face I was relieved. I was broken, wanted to go to sleep and stop thinking. The rest was already in the van, Baekhyun on Chanyeols lap. Their lips not very far apart from each other, to my relief. I sat opposite of them en closed my eyes, hoping we would be at the hotel soon.

'Hyung, we've arrived.' a hand touching my shoulder, shaking my lightly. Blinking opening my eyes, I looked at the one who woke me up. I didn't even noticed I felt asleep. Chen smiled at me. 'Are you coming?' As I looked around, I couldn't help but notice that I was the last one, again. I unlocked my seatbelt and got out of the van. Half of EXO was already inside the hotel, on there way to their room. I shared mine with Sehun, who was walking with Kai. I joined them to the elevator. When we walked in I saw Chanyeol and Baekhyun leaning against each other. They were very cute, together and sleepy. Just by seeing them like this, you could notice how much they cared about each other.

Once we arrived at our floor, we got out. Bidding Kai, Chanyeol and Baekhyun goodnight, I walked to my own room at the end of the hall. Sehun closely following behind me. The room wasn't very big. Two beds, a tv, a mini fridge, a closet and a bathroom. 'I'm taking a quick shower.' Sehun's eyes found mine before he smiled and locked the bathroom door. I removed my shoes and took place on my bed at the window side. I looked at the thousand lights lighting up the city. It was beautiful, which made me smile. I sighed and lay back, crossing my feet and putting my arms under my head. Automatically drifted my thoughts to disappearing. Just like the lights would go out once the morning came. Like the moon that changes into the sun at day, like winter that turns into summer, like darkness turns into lights. Just like that, I wanted to disappear. Nobody knowing where I am, nobody noticing I was a singer, nobody noticing I was EXO's Luhan.

I closed my eyes and listened to the sound of the shower, hearing a soft sound of Sehun singing. I liked listening to him sing. Not many got the pleasure of hearing his voice. Many think he can't sing, but that isn't true. He doesn't sing in front of others, just raps. I'm just lucky I did hear it, because I loved listening to it. A few minutes later the sound stopped and Sehun's head popped up. 'You can take a shower, if you want.' I opened my eyes and looked at the younger one in the room, with just a towel around his waist. Seeing how the drops of water made their way across his chest. 'I'll shower tomorrow morning. I don't want to get up anymore.' I said smiling, but not a generous one. 'Are you that tired?' Sehun also smiled at me while drying his hair. 'Yes, I'm just very tired.' He nodded and went back into the bathroom. Probably replacing the towel for underwear and sleepwear. I sighed and removed my pants and threw them on the floor next to the bed. I crawled under the blanket and closed my eyes again. Before Sehun came back from the bathroom, was I drowned in a deep sleep.