Lost in love - HunHan

Chapter O4

Luhan P.O.V.

I was happy to have a little bit of quality time with Sehun. Most of the time, some of the other members like Tao or Kai or Chanbaek, were with us and we were together almost 24/7. Sometime it was just enough to be with so many people. It was nice that the lovebirds weren't always around us and to be alone with Sehun, just relaxing. The lovebirds mostly go back to their own room, doing whatever they want to do together. I was fine with that, as long as it wasn't in my face the whole time. After the concert tonight we'll be moving on to the next location in Japan. Since it wasn't very far, the managers decided we would go with a tourbus. He thought it would be nice to go like that instead of always going with a plane. There was one thing I wasn't happy about, we had to sleep in bunkbeds in the same room, with Chanbaek. I really don't like that, as they can't really keep quiet and they'll probably keep me awake at night. I kinda hope I'm not the only one and Suho or Kris will say something about it so they'll be quiet at night, since they sleep in the same room too. I do always wonder where they get the energy to do that after a show. I was always completely drained of my energy.

The ride to the stadium wasn't that long and we soon arrived at our destination, where we had to stay until tonight. Luckily we didn't have to do much after the soundcheck and we had some free time. 'Hyung?' I gave a small sound and didn't look at Sehun who called me. 'Will you come with me, outside?' I tried not to sight, I would love to go outside with him, but I was sure there would be fans and I wanted to walk straight to the dressingroom. I really don't know what is going on with me, but it wasn't going the right way and if I wouldn't solve it it would end badly. 'Uhm, yeah, okay.' I said eventually, even though it was only to make him smile. With his smile he could make someone laugh who felt horrible. Without saying something to the rest we left the bus and went outside. The sun was shining brightly, but it wasn't to hot. I looked around and was relieved there weren't any fans and I hoped it would stay that way. God, I really need to get over this. 'Hyung, are you sure you are okay?' Sehun's eyes where looking at me, searching for something out of the ordinary. I bit my lip and nodded yes. 'Yes, I'm fine. Really. Don't worry to much about me.' I smiled weakly and looked ahead of us. 'I do worry about you, you're my best friend.' I sighed quietly. 'Sehun, please. Everything is fine, if it wasn't you'd be the first to know about it.' I lied, if I didn't he would already know about the fact that leaving went through my head very often lately. 'Fine, fine.' Without saying another word we continued walking together, only stopping for a fan when we saw one.

It was fun being with Sehun, like it was before we debuted and I noticed I missed that. Now we had such busy schedules we didn't really spent time together as friends and go outside together. When we went back to our dressingroom, everyone was inside. Chanbaek busy with eachother, some playing games, Kai practicing his dancing, some in make-up and others sleeping. Nothing out of the ordinary really. Our managers came in with our dinner and we woke up the ones that were sleeping. Sehun decided to play a game with Chanyeol, while others were watching them. Baekhyun sat between Chanyeols legs, supporting him. Sehun often yelled he was cheating while the others laughed at him because he was winning. I smiled and felt really happy at those moments, like nothing was wrong. After I finished my food I looked at the clock and saw we still had some time before the concert started. My mind started wondering again. What would happen if I'd walk outside, got a taxi and went to the airport and just fly to some country, maybe Italy since I've never been there and really would like to. Would they be worried? I was curious, would the concerts still continue if I'm gone? I bit my lip and went through my hair. I had to stop, I'm making myself go crazy. 'Shall I help Sehun-ah?' Everyone knew I suck at that game, but still he nodded yes. I followed Baekhyun's example and sat between his legs. It didn't really help Sehun in winning this game, on the contrary. When Chanyeol got the lead by scoring, he got some kisses from the smaller one between his legs. Suddenly I scored against Chanyeol. 'I scored, it you see that Sehun!' It was a miracle. Normally it would be 0-4 within the first minute and now I scored, with Sehuns help but that doesn't matter now. With sparkles in my eyes I looked at Sehun and felt incredible happy when I saw him smile and for a moment I didn't understand why I wanted to leave. How could I survive without his smile? 'Well done Luhan.' I didn't mind he spoke informally to me, I was to happy at the moment. I turned back to the game, to watch Sehun beating Chanyeol.