Lost in love - HunHan

Chapter O7

Sehun P.O.V.

It was a very big hit in my face, at least that's what it felt like, when Luhan asked me what I would do if you would leave. De kiss he pressed on my forehead, a kiss that normally would make me go crazy, seemed very much like a goodbye kiss. I kept as quiet as if could, the moment he asked me. I wanted him to think I was still sleeping at that moment and also he wouldn't have said that if I weren't. He'd probably brush it off as a joke if he noticed I was awake at that time. He thought I didn't hear anything and told me he would leave. And now, I'm laying here, with Luhan in my arms, and he told me that he would never leave me. I didn't believe him. He didn't sound honest, but broken. I couldn't bring myself to say something and I didn't want to either. The thought of Luhan leaving keeps going through my head.

I heard Baekhyun and Chanyeol leave the bus, probably joining the rest of the group who were in the building. They didn't even say anything at us or even looked in our direction. 'I told you so.' Luhan said, while staring in my eyes. 'They only care for themselves, not even noticing the other members of the group anymore ever since they are together.' I looked into his eyes, which were looking very sad at the moment. The four of us were always a little group within EXO, but since they're together we haven't been like before that. 'Maybe you're right.' I mumbled in a response. I put my hand on his back and pulled him in closer. 'Are we going to do something later?' Luhan asked quietly. 'What do you want to do?' I asked him in return. 'Nothing, actually. I'm fine staying like this.' he mumbled and I chuckled. 'Good,' I said. 'There's a benefit to being long. You get to lay down like this.' I mumbled. The boy in my arms looked at me smiling. 'I'm very sure a lot of girls would love to lie against you like this. What to kiss you, so you have to bend over. Or you'd have to lift her.' He said cheerfully. A stab in the heart, that's what his words are. He said girl, because it would never have occurred to him that I like him. That I have all these feelings for him. 'God, every girl wants you. Even the hot boys, which you always like. Even they want you.' He said, while ruffling my hair. That's not true, you don't want me. I could have said it, but I didn't have the guts to tell him. I never had the guts to walk up to a girl of boy. Even though I was loved by the fans, it was still a very hard thing to do for me. I tried to smile but failed. All of a sudden, there was an awkward silence and I didn't know what to do or say. 'Do you mind that I'm laying here like this?' Luhan asked suddenly. I looked at him, confused. 'No, of course not. If I did I would have sent you away, dummy.' I said smiling. I turned a bit, so that I was facing the ceiling of the bus. 'We have to find a nice guy for you, Hyung, or a girl.' I said softly. He looked at me. 'You deserve someone who loves you, who cares about you.' With every word I said, my heart broke a little bit. I don't know why I couldn't bring myself to tell him that I had feelings for him, that I wanted to be that guy. Probably because I could lose my best friend if I told him. 'You know I don't need anyone, Sehun. Not right now.' The second reason I didn't want to tell him. 'I though it would make you a bit merrier. Sorry.' I mumbled. 'No, Sehunnie, don't say sorry. I, god, sorry Sehun. I shouldn't be so blunt.' He said quickly. I looked at him and we both opened our mouth to say something. This only resulted in us laughing. 'What's so funny?' I peeked over Luhan and saw Chanyeol standing there. 'Oh, nothing.' I said smiling. 'There is breakfast, if you want.' He said and looked at me and Luhan. 'You guys look very cosy.' He said fascinating. 'Just go.' I said, with a small smile. Chanyeol shrugged and walked away. 'You want breakfast?' I asked Luhan, who was still laying next to me. He shook his head. 'Do I have to get something for you?' I asked then. 'Wait, I'm going to get you something, alright?' I climbed over him and didn't wait for him to answer. He just laid very still and I heard him sigh.

I walked outside to see Baekhyun and Chanyeol at a table with food. I walked to the table to get some breakfast for Luhan and me, and walked back in the direction I came from. 'You're not very sociable.' Baekhyun said to me. 'As if you guys are.' I said back at him. I turned around and walked back to Luhan.

I shook him a bit, to make him know that I was back. He turned around and looked at me. 'Look.' I said while showing him the breakfast I got us. He set up straight and took his breakfast. I jumped next to him. In silence, we ate our breakfast and I would occasionally glance in his direction. He smiled, as a sign that he noticed I was looking at him. I was shocked when someone stook next to me, all of a sudden. It was Baekhyun. 'Hey, uh, I just wanted to say that you were right, about what you said earlier. I just wanted to say sorry. We'll try to be more careful.' He said while bitting his lip. I nodded and smiled at him. 'It's okay, hyung.' I said. The smaller boy smiled at me and Luhan. 'That I'm going back to Chanyeol.' He said awkwardly. I nodded and smiled again. Luhan turned to me after Baekyeol was gone. 'What was that about, what did you say to him?' He asked. 'He was wining that we weren't very sociable. So I said that he and Chanyeol weren't either.' I said casually and the boy started to laugh. I loved his laugh. The corners of his mouth that formed a smile. The sound that sounded more like a giggle than a real laugh. His eyes, which started to sparkle and his body that gently shook. I loved it so much.

I finished my breakfast and cleaned my hands. 'I think I'm going to take a shower.' Luhan said, who also finished his breakfast and was playing with his hands. 'Alright, Hyung.' I said laughing. 'But for now, I'm going to stay here.' He said smiling. He slipped back and lay down. Automatically, I laid down next to him and put my chin on his shoulder, put my arms around his waist and pulled him in closer. I could stay like this forever.