Lost in love - HunHan

Chapter 11

Sehun P.O.V.

I suddenly woke up from the sound of a door closing. I looked next to me and saw that my bed was empty, Luhan wasn't lying next to me anymore. 'No, no, no!' I jumped out of bed and looked around. He wasn't in any bed or in the bathroom.  I walked to the front of the bus. He wasn't there either, only an white envelope on the table. I tore it open to read what he wrote down for us, since our names were written on the front. 'Damn it.' I ran back to the beds and woke up the rest, tears in my eyes. 'Sehun-ah, what's wrong?' Suho looked worried and knew something wasn't right, because I would never wake him up. Usually it is the other way around. 'He left hyung, he left us.' I sobbed. 'We have to go to the airport, we have to stop him.' I cried harder. 'Shit' Kris jumped out of bed after he heard what I said and he went to wake up Chanyeol and Baekhyun, explaining what was going on. 'Sehun, get dressed. I'll arrange transport.' I looked at Kris and nodded. I quickly put on a hoody and sweatpants. At the moment I didn't care how I looked. I only cared about Luhan.

The journey to the airport seemed endless and despite to the warming words from the others, I knew we would be to late. We wouldn't see Luhan again. Suho had to explain to the manager why we had to go, he told Luhan left and gave him the note he left. He also asked him to wake up the other members, in the other bus, and let them read the letter while we were trying to stop him. Our manager just nodded and gave his car keys to Suho, saying to go quickly. He also didn't want Luhan to go, nobody wanted that. Everybody loved Luhan. I bit my lip and went through my hair with my hand. Kris' hand was in mine, squeezing it from time to time. 'Maybe we'll be on time.' Baekhyun said quietly. 'He didn't buy a ticket, so maybe there wasn't place and he has to wait.' Chanyeol said in response to his boyfriend. I didn't have that many trust, and they didn't either, judging from how they sounded.

When the car started to drive slowly, I looked startled. 'We're stuck in traffic.' Suho mumbled. My world came crashing down. I slumped and wanted to close my eyes, not wanting to opening them anymore. I should have convinced him to stay last night. I should have told him that I was on cloud 9 because of him. I should have told him how much he meant to me. But I didn't and look at where that has gotten us. My miserable and he was gone.

After half an hour, we finally arrived at the airport. 'Go, I'll go park somewhere.' Suho said. I didn't wait any longer and followed Kris out the car. Baekhyun and Chanyeol followed directly behind us. People looked at us weirdly and some seemed to recognize us. We ignored everybody and looked at the departure times. A flight to China was leaving in ten minutes. That would mean that the passengers would be boarding the plane any minute. 'Come on.' Chanyeol shouted, before running away. I followed him and know Kris and Baekhyun would follow. We arrived at the gate, just on time. 'Tickets please.' the man at the gate said. I looked down. 'Sir, please. Our friend boarded the plane and we have to go to him. He can't leave. Please, sir.' I felt a hand on my shoulder, this time it was Baekhyuns. The man looked confused, but shook his head. 'No ticket, no boarding.' After that he turned around and the gate closed. I looked at the closed door, separating me from Luhan. Tears were streaming down my face, and I could hardly keep standing. It was like my legs became jelly. I could only look at the closed door in front of me. 'Sehun-ah.' I didn't answer. My eyes were stinging and I felt many eyes on me. 'Sehun-ah, people can see you. You don't want to appear in the paper like this.' Baekhyun tried. I didn't answer. I didn't want to answer. I wanted to run away and hide from everyone. 'Come.' Chanyeol whispered. He took my hands and guided me towards the exit. 'Come on, Sehun-ah.' I heard Kris say. 'I should have told him.' I sobbed. 'And now he is gone and I can't tell him anything.' I shook my head and walked to the exit. I saw Suho and I knew he knows we were to late. If not, I wouldn't look like this. I walked to the car and sat down. Chanyeol and Baekhyun sat down next to me. I closed the door and put my head against the cold glass. I looked at my friends next to me. They were holding each others hands. As if they were afraid they would lose each other. I felt a hand caressing my back and I closed my eyes. 'We're going to call him until he answers his phone.' I heard Chanyeol say. I looked at Baekhyun, who had tears in his eyes. Hy patted his lap and I laid my head on it. I let the tears stream down, didn't bother to stop them. I closed my eyes and took Baekhyuns hand. 'Is everything going to be fine? With us, with EXO? And with Luhan?' I asked without looking up. I heard Baekhyun sob quietly. 'Sorry hyung.' I mumbled, while I felt Baekhyuns legs shake.

This was it. Luhan was gone and I didn't have the opportunity to say goodbye. Non of us had. The hyung that meant everything to me, he had left me and I had to learn how to live with it. And I asked myself if I would be able to.