Lost in love - HunHan

Chapter O8

P.O.V. Luhan

Around noon, Luke and I had managed to literally roll ourselves out of bed, Luke was the first to take shower and I followed his example. After the game, we ate something with Chanyeol and Baekhyun and the four of us went to do something fun. I had to say that Chanyeol and Baekhyun had listened to Sehuns nice note, they tried to do their very best not to show that she would rather be together, just the two of them.

All in all, it had become one afternoon as we always used to have before Chanyeol and Baekhyun got in a relationship. Eventually we ended up in a small cute little place, where they served pizza. Here, it was the love of the two boys which came up and without shame they kissed each other, too eager in my opinion. Now were we waiting until we got to perform. I was glad the afternoon ended up like that, many doubts about going away were gone, I'd decided to tell them after the concert, maybe wait a few minutes, but I had to get it of my chest. Thinking about how hurt Sehun would be, that hurts very much, but I've banished all those thoughts out of my head and now I will concentrate on my last show. God, what did I do ... I was dragged along by Sehun toward the stage, I had not heard that it's almost time to perform. You could hear all the fans screaming and calling our names, every now and then you also heard once "BaekYeol" over and Chanyeol and Baekhyun would look at each other and just smile. I shook my head once, smiled to Sehuna before going to my place with the other guys, waiting for the intro to play and to start out concert. The intro started to play and the crowd went completely wild, the first chords were struck and thus began the beginning of my last show.

The screams at the end of the last song where overwhelming, I still could not quite contain all of it. I took it as a farewell applause. A faint smile played faintly around my lips and I was happy when I had a towel in order to wipe away the sweat and a bottle of water to drink something. As always, this was the moment for Chanyeol and Baekhyun to go up to each other and gave each other a kiss and a hug as a sign that the concert was over. Sehun stoot silently next to them sat down to disappear into his cellphone, probably on twitter of playing a game. Being the youngest, he always had to wait the longest before being able to take a shower of clean up. "I, uhm...' I mumbled quietly, Sehun being the only one who heard me and sent me a weak smile. 'I want to talk to you,' I said after that, a little bit harder in order for him to understand what I was saying. Chanyeol and Baekhyun also heard me and stopped what they were doing and just like Sehun, were looking in my direction. Suho and Kris also noticed something was wrong and gestured everybody to be quiet and others to leave. Now, only the twelve of us were left in the room. I could still back out, if I wanted, but I would probably regret it and than we would be in the same situation a week later, just in another place. When non of the three spoke, I cleared my throat and started talking, not to loud. 'I have been feeling something for a while, and the feeling doesn't seem to go away, whatever I try, whatever I say to myself. I can't get it out of my mind and I'm sick of it.' I took a deep breath, and opened my eyes before I looked at al the eleven boys in the room before speaking the wretched words. 'That is why I've decided to leave. I'm quitting.' Sehuns mouth fell open, eyes wide. He blinked a few times, processing what I just told them and I could see the tears forming in his eyes. Baekhyun grabbed Chanyeol so hard, the longer one made the shorter one release his grip. Suso just stared, like the rest, not saying anything.

'You can't!' It was Sehun who spoke first. He stood up and walked in my direction, only to grab both my hands and looked me in the eyes. 'I can.' I said hoarsely. 'You promised me, hyung, You - You...' He couldn't find his words and I bit my lip. 'I'm sorry, really. You don't know how much this hurts me, but this is for the best, believe me. I'm sure that I'll see you again and I will be feeling much better.' Sehun shook his head. 'You - You, no, you can't do this to me! You have to stay, I obliged you! You promised and you can't break your promise, Luhan.' This time, it was me who shook his head. 'Sorry. I'm feeling like this for a while, and I can't take it anymore, it's driving my completely crazy.' I heard someone coughing and I moved away from Sehun. 'When?' was all Kris said. I looked around. Baekhyuns face was in de crook of Chanyeols neck, he was crying. Kris and Suho seemed a bit angry. Xiumin looked really confused, as did Kai, D.O, Lay. I could see the disappointed look in Lays eyes and Tao looked as if he could start crying every moment, like Sehun. 'As soon as possible, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow. Tonight was my last show, that's for sure.' I felt Sehun become rigid. 'Can't I talk you out of this? Stay, please.' Suho tried, but it had no effect. 'For me?' Sehun added. I looked at him, which I shouldn't have done. I felt a strong pain in my chest when I saw the tears on his cheeks. I removed them with my thumb. 'I can't anymore, really. This is the best solution for everyone.' Sehun backed away, so I can't reach him anymore to remove his tears, and ran out of the room. Baekhyun and Tao followed. Xiumin and D.O. went after them, probably to comfort them. Kris looked at me, his eyes looked red. 'How can you be that selfish, Luhan! Can't you see that boy has feelings for you!' He yelled at me in Chinese, something he does when he is really upset or angry. In this case I think it more the latter. He also walked out the room, Chanyeol following him to go to Baekhyun. Did he just try to tell me that Sehun felt more than just friendship? A sarcastic laugh left my throat, that wasn't possible right? I removed the upcoming tears and walked out of the dressingroom, out of the building. I didn't see any of the guys who walked out before me, and I didn't want to. I walked outside and hundreds of fans started to scream my name when they saw me, but I ignored every single one of them. I didn't have the energy to deal with them, and didn't want to at this moment.

I entered the bus where I slept, Baekhyun and Chanyeol were on the couch. Chanyeol was comforting Baekhyun, but both ignored me when I walked in. Baekhyun didn't even look up and Chanyeol just gave me a glare. Speaking about selfish, they could also listen to my side of the story. I walked to my bed, Sehuns bed was empty, as were all of the beds. Apparently, he didn't return here after storming out of the room. I know I've hurt him very much, but I can't continue to live unhappy.

I took a quick shower before going back. I saw Sehun, who had come back, in his bed. 'Sehun?' but I got no reaction. I crawled into his bed and said his name again, but nothing. Hopefully I could talk to him tomorrow, or else I had to leave with more guilt than I already was feeling. I folded my arms around Sehuns body and closed my eyes, holding on to Sehun. After being awake for more than half an hour ago, I finally fell into a dreamless sleep.