Lost in love - HunHan

Chapter 1O

Luhan P.O.V.

I blinked my eyes a few times, before opening them. I felt Sehuns arms around my small waist and a forced expression on his face. As quiet as possible, I tried getting out of the grip of the younger boy. I got out of the bed. I looked at the other beds. Suho's and Kris curtains were closed, probably still sleeping like the rest. Baekhyuns bed was empty, he probably slept in Chanyeols like most of the times. I looked at Chanyeols bed, to confirm my predictions. Baekhyun was lying against Chanyeol, his arms around the body of the smaller boy. I bit my lip, looked at Sehun, who had turned around so I couldn't see his face anymore. I took a quick shower, packed my bags and sat on the couch. I put my beg in front of me and took a piece of paper, a pen and started writing.

My dear EXO members,

This is probably the last thing you'll hear from me in a very long time. When you are reading this, I'll be gone. I don't want you to come looking for me, that's pointless. No matter how hard it must be for you guys, I want you to continue doing what you love,  without me. I know that it will be very hard in the beginning, but think about how happy it would make me if you guys continue living your life and dream. I don't know what our manager will do or SM Entertainment. I don't really care to be honest. I also don't know what do to with the fans and I am secretly hoping that you guys can come up with something for that, sorry if that is selfish.

I am sorry, truly. But I know that this is the best for everyone. One day, we will see each other again and I am sure that I will feel much better than I am feeling at this moment.

Suho, thank you for always being a great leader

Kris, thank you for everything you did for me these years

Chanyeol, thank you for always brightening the mood when we were down

Baekhyun, thank you for always teasing the rest and making me laugh

Lay, thank you for helping me when I was homesick by speaking Chinees

Xiumin, thank you for being an amazing Hyung I could always turn to

Chen, thank you for always singing with me

Tao, thank you for being like the little Chinese brother I never had

D.O., thank you for being you

Kai, thank you for always helping me with my dancing

My dear Sehun, thank you for everything, always making me smile and making me feel loved.

I love all of you,

Yours Truly, Luhan

A few tears fell on the paper and I quickly folded it, so the ink wouldn't be ruined more than it already was. I put it in the envelope and wrote all their names on the front. I placed it in the middle of the table, that way they would find it easily. I took some food before grabbing my bag. I looked back for the last time, everybody still fast asleep, Sehun still turned away and the couple in each others arms. I turned around and walked out the door. The fresh morning air was nice, I breathed in and out, before walking away and I might have closed the door a little bit to hard.

I found my way to the airport, luckily without being noticed. I hoped they wouldn't notice me when I land, that would ruin it. But if the boys think clearly, they know where I'm going; home. I wanted to go home, to my family. Hopefully I could hide there for a while, but maybe not. It was still early in the morning and it wasn't very crowded at the airport. I walked to the front desk, asking if there was a flight, and if there was a seat available. I was lucky, there was only one left for the next flight. Usually you'd have to buy the tickets before the flight, but I took a gamble and went to the airport without a ticket. I payed the woman at the front desk and looked at the departure time. An hour from now. Sooner than I expected. I checked in my bag and went to the gate, waiting for the time to pass and to board the plane to go home.