Lost in love - HunHan

Chapter 2O

Luhan P.O.V.

'I asked you not to come into view, was that really so hard to do?' I said, while turning around to face Zhang. 'Why can't they see me, Lu? What is the problem?' The boy in front of me asked. I sighed and got up from the chair. 'I just don't want them to think that I forgot about them. I'm not sure either. It just doesn't feel right.' I said, while biting my lip. 'But whatever, it happened and we can't change the past.' I said and put my hands in the pockets of my hoodie. I turned to Zhang and told him what I wanted to eat, while thinking of Sehun. I thought about Baekhyuns and Suho's words and about Sehuns face, which I caught a glimpse off before shutting down Skype. I thought about his calming words and his strong arms around me. I wondered a lot of times if I made the wrong choice. I miss the boys a lot, but especially Sehun and I couldn't get the thought out of my head that maybe he loved me too. In the way that I loved him. I doubt it. I don't believe Baekhyuns words. I told myself he just said it so I wouldn't leave him and EXO, but it still troubled me. Luckily, I found a lot of distractions here in China. My parents and family had welcomed me with open arms. They understood that it was a very difficult decision for me. I also met Zhang. He was a very easy guy, who helped with everything. He was an amazing friend, but nothing more than that.

'Lu?' I looked at Zhang with a confused expression. 'I'm sorry, I was lost in thoughts.' I said. 'I told you to stop doing that. You are thinking to much about Sehun.' I felt heat creeping up my face. 'I wasn't thinking about Sehun. Not just about Sehun.' I told him quietly. 'Not a donkey would consider that to be true.' Said the boy while folding his arms in front of him. 'But fine, your mother asked you to come down.' He said next. 'She's at home?' I asked in surprise. 'Apparently.' Zhang answered, who sat down on my bed while laughing. I grabbed my phone and looked at all the messages and missed calls from Sehun and the rest. I didn't had the courage to answer them.

I raced downstairs to meet my mother in the kitchen. 'Mom? Zhang will join us for dinner, will that be a problem?' I asked, while giving her a kiss on the cheek. 'Of course not.' My mother said. 'I wondered something.' She said. I looked at her questioningly. 'Did you already contacted the boys?' She asked next. 'Yes, uh, just a while ago. But it didn't go really well. I'll try again soon.' I smiled weakly and turned around. 'I'm just happy that you tried. I know how much you love those guys.' My mother said. I smiled and walked out of the kitchen.

I know I'm such a naive person in this whole mess, but my thoughts were more important than my feelings. And that's the reason I didn't take any actions. Like I said, soon maybe. But just not at this moment. I went upstairs and sat down next to Zhang. 'And?' He asked, while doing something on his phone. 'Ah, just nothing important.' I answered him. I also grabbed my phone and played a bit, but felt very bored. 'I need some distraction.' I said. 'What do you want to do?' Zhang asked surprised. I shrugged. 'I don't really care, but I just need to think about nothing. Right now.' I said. Zhang seemed to think before talking. 'There is a party tonight, at a friend of mine. We can go and get something to drink before going? That way, we have something to do.' He suggested. I nodded slowly and felt energy bubbling. Yes, a party would make me lose my thoughts. Dancing with people. Drinking until you puke. Screaming until you have no voice and then finding a way to get home. Yes, that would be fine.